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Rant below.

I think I made  HUGE mistake.
I thought that I knew what I wanted to major in and went for it. I applied for a scolarship so I could study in the states (out-of-state tuition is a joke) and by a miracle I got it. A full scholarship to study Actuarial Science (what Ben Stiller was in Along Came Polly). I was so excited I didn't stop to think about it, I signed the contract and I have already received the first payment. But now, I'm having second thoughts about it. I can't back out now for the following reasons:

1. a) I signed a contract and have received the first payment, I would have to pay it all back with an added percentage.
2. b) My WHOLE family wants me to study AS.
3. c) I really, really, really want to study in the U.S. and there's no way I can do it, other than with the scholarship for AS.

Reasons I'm having second thoughts:

1. a) As much as I love math, A LOT of people have told me that AS is incredibly hard and that more than half of the people who study it drop out and pick something easier. I CAN'T DO THAT or I'll have to pay the scholarship myself with a 10% interest.
2. b) I need to do something creative, either writing or painting. But since I also love math, I didn't want to pursue a major in those fields. Solution: I think I'll opt for a creative writing minor, or maybe a graphic design one.
3. c) There's no turning back for me really, I don't allow myself to show that kind of weakness. I'm going to study AS, even if I have to study 20 hours a day, every day until I graduate.

So that's basically why I think I made a mistake, I have no other choice but to continue with the path I chose. But now I wish that I had thought more of it before diving head first into a major that I didn't fully comprehend.

End of rant=)