I look to you as my only friend

[prayforthefools]

Looking back is hasn't been very long, but I often feel that I am not living my life what so ever, I feel more as a spectator, I see everything from a third person perspective. I have been taken on the most intense ride of my life in the past two months, I dont want to be forgotten. I want everyone one to be with who they derserve to be with as far as dudes go in my eyes. I have been blessed to have such amazing men around me on a semi daily basis. I have known a majority of these guys for quite sometime, all they want and I as well is what we had, had a chance of having, or cant have at all. Pretty much covers all basis on having. But we all just want the best, or else we wouldnt still keep in touch, speak, or anything of the sort with you. Choices are difficult and maybe at times is what everyone needs. I am surrounded by extraordinary men that act like boys at heart just to keep the outside emotions hidden. I speak based on how I feel about situations, not that these statements being read are hold true for others. This weekend was amazing, and truly felt like summer, how a summer should be spent even though in the back of our minds we are all thinkin alike while telling eachother to keep our heads up. I just want me and all my friends to feel good again. Im tired of being slammed back down everytime I recover to get back up again and have the process repeated.
Song Quotes I cant get out of my head...."I want so much to open your eyes" "Get away from these liar, because they dont get your soul or your fire" "What is the light that you have" "Hope there is someone who will take care of me when I die, when I go" "Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face" "I cant take my mind off of you" I will regret this in 23 hours.