let's run through airports like thieves

[pray_for_hope]

....that sounded cool in my head.

so tonight i went out with a. it was fun. we had a good time. he's a great guy. he says he only likes me as a friend....but that can change right? it has to change. it will. no worries.

because sometimes i think he's the only thing keeping me here. and i know its completely insane, but this thing is so close sometimes...i can taste it. the freedom. what i could have. but i have something here. i have my life here.

sometimes it can be too sweet. and i know that, and i know running away won't solve anything, because it never does. but i could have that life right? more then one ideal. there's always more then one ideal.

anyways....rambling. again. oops.

so i think in the meantime, i'll go out with aL. he's cute enough. i could deal with him.

i'll stay for now. but it's so sweet....so sweet.

just the three of us.