Just a night
Ehck I'm feelin odd and tired, I really don't wanna work in an hour. (fuck doubles)
It's weird, I came to the first of a few epiphanies last night.
I am capable of totally losing interest in someone in a night.
Pretentious artsy kids can be a major turn off, no matter how hot or funny you are. The key word is pretentious. I just don't roll with that crowd.
I don't really need anyone to be happy, I enjoyed the walk home alone more then the rest of the night put together.
I'm quite a jumbled kid when it comes to these things, but it's a comfort to know that I can choose whats good for me. If I'm not really interested, I'm not interested, thats that.
I know that sounds weird and probably obvious and maybe even a little shallow, but you know, If you've never really had the chance to turn someone down then how can you be sure your not destined to stumble from one pointless infatuation/desperation driven relationship to another? It's always been a tiny fear of mine, that I'll get caught up in the stupid game, only interested in people becuase I think I have a chance or I see some mutual interest. That Ill always eventually be forgotten, always simply waiting until my appeal runs out. It's an amazing realization that you don't really have to just take what you can get. And that sometimes, even something that might look good, isn't worth your time even exploring.
I know who I am enough to say that.
Now back to being confused :P
It's weird, I came to the first of a few epiphanies last night.
I am capable of totally losing interest in someone in a night.
Pretentious artsy kids can be a major turn off, no matter how hot or funny you are. The key word is pretentious. I just don't roll with that crowd.
I don't really need anyone to be happy, I enjoyed the walk home alone more then the rest of the night put together.
I'm quite a jumbled kid when it comes to these things, but it's a comfort to know that I can choose whats good for me. If I'm not really interested, I'm not interested, thats that.
I know that sounds weird and probably obvious and maybe even a little shallow, but you know, If you've never really had the chance to turn someone down then how can you be sure your not destined to stumble from one pointless infatuation/desperation driven relationship to another? It's always been a tiny fear of mine, that I'll get caught up in the stupid game, only interested in people becuase I think I have a chance or I see some mutual interest. That Ill always eventually be forgotten, always simply waiting until my appeal runs out. It's an amazing realization that you don't really have to just take what you can get. And that sometimes, even something that might look good, isn't worth your time even exploring.
I know who I am enough to say that.
Now back to being confused :P