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You know what I just noticed? This is my journal yet I sometimes censor what I say....which means I care too much about what other people think about my thought processes and way of living. That's total bullshit. I need to fuckin' get over myself.
*End of abject self-loathing moment*
Today, something happened.
This is a "something" because it's still vague. I really want it to be more than what my common sense is telling me. I want this. For the first time, I'm ready for this. Perhaps I'm too ready. I'm afraid this anxiousness is blinding me and making more out of the situation. I just really wish I knew! The situation is too damn convoluted. So convoluted that I feel that if I were to put it into words, the fuzzies will go away and clarity will make it too real. It's been a while since I've had the fuzzies. I'm keeping them for as long as I can afford to keep them.
Heh, this is not in conflict with what I first wrote in this entry! Completely different situation, LoL.
Major denial.
*End of abject self-loathing moment*
Today, something happened.
This is a "something" because it's still vague. I really want it to be more than what my common sense is telling me. I want this. For the first time, I'm ready for this. Perhaps I'm too ready. I'm afraid this anxiousness is blinding me and making more out of the situation. I just really wish I knew! The situation is too damn convoluted. So convoluted that I feel that if I were to put it into words, the fuzzies will go away and clarity will make it too real. It's been a while since I've had the fuzzies. I'm keeping them for as long as I can afford to keep them.
Heh, this is not in conflict with what I first wrote in this entry! Completely different situation, LoL.
Major denial.