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blah fuckity blah blah.
working again, making double what i was making before. thinking of buying a new car. thinking of quitting my job (again) to move somewhere come the fall. wishing i could punch someone in the face for never answering my fucking phone calls (my, it hasn't changed much has it). i wish my bro's were here, so i wouldn't be so fucking bored all the fucking time. fuck. listen to what i say, do i as i do, die as i die.
my warning ment nothing.
My compassion is broken now.
My will is eroded now,
and my desire is broken now
and it makes me feel ugly.
I'm on my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are the fuel that,
set my head on fire.
So smell my soul is burning.
I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy.
And I have swallowed the poison you feed me...
but I survive on it, and it leaves me
guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed..
and it makes me feel ugly.
On my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are the fuel that
set my head on fire.
I'm dead inside!
Shit adds up at the bottooom...
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself.
But in order to survive you, I must first survive myself.
I can sink no further and I cannot forgive you.
There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you.
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain.
I will use my mistakes against you.
There's no other choice.
Shameless now.
Nameless now.
Nothing now.
No one now.
But my soul must be iron cause my fear is naked.
I'm naked and fearless.
And my fear is naked!
Hatred keeps me alive,
ugliness keeps me alive,
weakness keeps me alive,
guilt keeps me alive
at the bottom!
working again, making double what i was making before. thinking of buying a new car. thinking of quitting my job (again) to move somewhere come the fall. wishing i could punch someone in the face for never answering my fucking phone calls (my, it hasn't changed much has it). i wish my bro's were here, so i wouldn't be so fucking bored all the fucking time. fuck. listen to what i say, do i as i do, die as i die.
my warning ment nothing.
My compassion is broken now.
My will is eroded now,
and my desire is broken now
and it makes me feel ugly.
I'm on my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are the fuel that,
set my head on fire.
So smell my soul is burning.
I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy.
And I have swallowed the poison you feed me...
but I survive on it, and it leaves me
guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed..
and it makes me feel ugly.
On my knees and burning.
My piss and moans are the fuel that
set my head on fire.
I'm dead inside!
Shit adds up at the bottooom...
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself.
But in order to survive you, I must first survive myself.
I can sink no further and I cannot forgive you.
There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you.
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain.
I will use my mistakes against you.
There's no other choice.
Shameless now.
Nameless now.
Nothing now.
No one now.
But my soul must be iron cause my fear is naked.
I'm naked and fearless.
And my fear is naked!
Hatred keeps me alive,
ugliness keeps me alive,
weakness keeps me alive,
guilt keeps me alive
at the bottom!