End of Break
So I figured I should try to keep up with this thing, since I have it anyway. Hopefully I won't be as whiny and angsty as I used to be when I'd log onto LJ. Holy Poseidon, I don't even want to look back through those entries, since I know how disgusting they'll be.
And still, I'm hard on myself about it. Lol.
Anyway. Mom's really been on my ass lately. It seems like everything I do has got her pissed at me. She won't come in and say goodnight anymore because I'm usually on the phone with Matt before I go to bed. I tell her I'll put the phone down or call him back, but she says no, she doesn't want to hug me while I'm on the phone because then "it'll be like hugging him and I don't want to do that". Which is kind of ridiculous. Plus she tells me everything I wear is inappropriate when I wear stockings underneath anything that comes above my knees, and she's getting mad that I want to spend a lot of time with my boyfriend. I guess that's basically pre-programmed, a mother being angry with her daughter for spending a lot of time with a boy, but it's really annoying. And Matt's a really nice kid. I mean, really nice. He's so sensitive and sweet...his mom's kind of a psycho, and has sheltered him for all of his life, which would explain the fact that he's not afraid to have emotions.
Back to what I was saying; Mom got especially mad at me today. My sister, Erin, was doing the polar bear jump, and Mom wanted me to go. I didn't really want to go anyway and wasn't planning on it (which made Erin feel a bit sad, but she said it was fine) so I went to Matt's instead. Before I left, Mom made a big thing about it, saying she was "disappointed" and that she "hoped it pays off for you". I understand that I probably should have gone to see Erin jump, since it was special to her (in fact I probably should have just brought Matt) but I wanted to see him since I'd only seen him once over vacation. I see Erin everyday, and I figured (correctly so) that she'd be doing the jump next year, so I could go then. I get that Mom would be disappointed in me, but I don't see why she had to make it such a huge deal. Then again, what do I know.
Hot damn, I have a splitting headache. I hope that tylenol I took kicks in soon, because this really hurts. Think I'm going to lie down.
And still, I'm hard on myself about it. Lol.
Anyway. Mom's really been on my ass lately. It seems like everything I do has got her pissed at me. She won't come in and say goodnight anymore because I'm usually on the phone with Matt before I go to bed. I tell her I'll put the phone down or call him back, but she says no, she doesn't want to hug me while I'm on the phone because then "it'll be like hugging him and I don't want to do that". Which is kind of ridiculous. Plus she tells me everything I wear is inappropriate when I wear stockings underneath anything that comes above my knees, and she's getting mad that I want to spend a lot of time with my boyfriend. I guess that's basically pre-programmed, a mother being angry with her daughter for spending a lot of time with a boy, but it's really annoying. And Matt's a really nice kid. I mean, really nice. He's so sensitive and sweet...his mom's kind of a psycho, and has sheltered him for all of his life, which would explain the fact that he's not afraid to have emotions.
Back to what I was saying; Mom got especially mad at me today. My sister, Erin, was doing the polar bear jump, and Mom wanted me to go. I didn't really want to go anyway and wasn't planning on it (which made Erin feel a bit sad, but she said it was fine) so I went to Matt's instead. Before I left, Mom made a big thing about it, saying she was "disappointed" and that she "hoped it pays off for you". I understand that I probably should have gone to see Erin jump, since it was special to her (in fact I probably should have just brought Matt) but I wanted to see him since I'd only seen him once over vacation. I see Erin everyday, and I figured (correctly so) that she'd be doing the jump next year, so I could go then. I get that Mom would be disappointed in me, but I don't see why she had to make it such a huge deal. Then again, what do I know.
Hot damn, I have a splitting headache. I hope that tylenol I took kicks in soon, because this really hurts. Think I'm going to lie down.