outside wants in......
i am familiar with awkward. i can't explain why...but i have always felt a sense of detachment when it comes to people at school. sure, there will always be the select few with whom i can relate, but mostly...i don't. i wish i could be as carefree as some of those i see, but i have overactive brain cells. the result is someone who looks at the others and senses their ignorance. sometimes its lonely on the outside, actually alot of the time its lonely. but i wouldn't complain. i would never trade my reality for anyone elses because i have cultivated who i am through each event. which for me, are more than most would think. im pretty sure that most people get the wrong impression about me. i don't know quite what they see, but things are never perfect. i am excellent at hiding reality. mostly i'm not comfortable around those people, because they are not comfortable around me. maybe we both sense the difference.**i am familar with awkward, maybe because i choose to set myself aside, its not comfortable on the edge, but its a hell of a lot more interesting........