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[pplrunincircles]

Holy moly.

So I'll be 17 tomorrow. February 4th. It's kind of a day of remembering for me, more than like a day of celebration. It's always been that way. I'll be spending some time at the cemetery. I haven't been in awhile. I couldn't go last year, cause I was becoming an angel and all.

My how time flies when you're having fun plagues and devils

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[pplrunincircles]

Oh, that's very true. I hadn't thought about it like that, but I guess you expect people who are wise to be like old. Still I kind of went through a lot in that one year so maybe I qualify as being "old" in the experience sense?

It's sort of why I dropped out. I didn't want to miss people who needed that help while I was in a classroom, you know?

Yeah, it's not like I really remember my mom dying or my mom either so I guess when I say remembrance, I mean go to her grave and like set flowers there and talk in her general direction. I used to spend that day with my dad, and he'd tell me stories about her. I remember all those stories, but every year it was a new set of stories. Except this year I guess.

Your mom died when you were older, right? Do you know why you can't remember it? Do you want to remember it? Maybe it's like one of those things where it's so painful that your brain blocks it out. It's best to remember the times when they were alive anyway. There's so much to celebrate about a person's life and that's what we should do when we remember them anyway.

I'd love to hang out! If not tomorrow then the day after, we should definitely hang out and watch an action flick or something. You're living in the Conrad, right? I think I may be stopping by there anyway tomorrow.

THANK YOU! THAT HAPPY FACE IS SO CUTE. :D

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Yes, old and wise in the experience sense! Totally what I meant!

I used to go to my mom's grave all the time, so I know what you mean by remberance. I would talk to her sometimes, too.

Maybe you can tell her a story about your life, and that can be this year's new story.

It's definitely best to remember the good things about a person's life! My mom used ot tell me stories and read me books all the time.

I am at the Conrad! We will take over the comman room! What's your favourite action flick?

Yay!

[another hastily scrawled stick figure holding out a cake]

[pplrunincircles]

I understand! Thank you for saying that. :)

I don't think you have to go to their grave to talk to them, but it does help you to feel closer somehow, huh? It's like impossible but the feeling's there.

Oh! That's a really good idea! Hey, you're kinda wise, too. I think I will tell her a story about my life. Goodness, so many to tell. Maybe I'll tell her about you! She'd like to know I have a 'brother' running around. I think that's what she'd like.

I think usually after they've died, it's easiest to remember the good things. I think that's something that happens.

COOL! I'm supposed to meet with my friend at the Conrad, too. Phoebe! We could all maybe go do something later, too! I love Die Hard! And this isn't an action flick really but Army of Darkness also rocks! And has zombies! :D

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Yeah, it does. I think ... I don't even think their bodies have to be there. Sort of. It's ike - a place that everyone knows means them and so ... it's like it gets surrounded by people loving them if they get visited at all and all that gets stored up for them, and they can feel it and you can too ...

...I am so rambling. I just - yeah, when I read books my mother read to me I feel close to her.

I am not wise! Sheesh. I'm a dork! I never thought of that. My mom would've loved me having a sister. 'Cause I was kind of a loner when I was a kid. You should tell her about your boyfriend! She'd be so excited to hear that, I know she would. :)

I haven't seen Die Hard! Or Army of Darkness! Zombies? I - I would still watch it, 'cause it's your birthday.

That'd be nice! Meeting people is good, especially when - well, if you like her I kinda trust that, you know?

So, yeah! Fun!

[pplrunincircles]

Wowza. I like thinking of it that way. See? You are wise. Not many people would be able to like word that so well. It's kind of beautiful to think about.

Rambling happens sometimes! It happens like all the time when you're me. So you can feel free to ramble away.

You are a very wise dork, Johnny! I think I will tell her about him. I don't know if she'd like that or not. I mean I don't really know what she wanted for me.

YOU HAVEN'T? They're classics! And so much fun! And filled with BAMFS!

Awww! It's so neat to have someone trust my opinion! It's not a common thing! Phoebe is amazing though! You'll so love her.