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I am so sick of people telling me that Im an awesome person and that Im lovable. Its such bullshit. Fucking bullshit. All I ever do is hurt the fucking people that trust me. What the hell is wrong with me. Im such a fuck up. I wish I had just stayed at Rogers. Or not even had made it to there, or I wish I would have smashed my head on that fire hydrant like I threatened to, or I wish I would have never turned myself in. I wish I had never had any friends, that I never said anything back in 8th grade to Becca, that I had hit that tree a little harder. I wish I was actually a nice person, or maybe I just wish it was over. Fuck this. Fuck it all.