"If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?"
Little outta touch, little insane...
Today was not a good day. It was pretty much terrible actually, and no not because it was Valentines day or anything just was a bad day. I deffienlty pretty much started crying in the hallway because people told me Laura was at school and then she wasn't. It stressed me out. And people were just being dumb like all day. That alright though. Not like I have friends anyways anymore. Don't really know how it got that way. Gym is the stupidest thing I've ever been through. If some nasty person has to carry me across the whole gym I will flip out, and I will refuse. She can kick me out of class if she wants, thats not happening I don't care. Thats just disgusting. Stupid friggen team building. Like I care if I don't like half the people in my gym class. We dont' want to be friends so why attempt to force us to be? That just doesn't even make sense.
I miss last year, and how things use to be. But at the same time I really don't. I mean this year is pretty bad too but it's not like terrible and I don't hate it as much as the beginning of last year. I mean, I've had some pretty good times. Thats for sure. Last year was just so...differnt I guess that it was fun. I don't know, I don't know anything anymore latley.
Vacation is so soon. Everybody is leaving though. Jen, Kristi, Justin. Then Laura is gone this weekend and the weekend after, and I'm gone wednesday and thursday. Gosh, I'm only going to be able to hang out with people on like Monday and Tuesday...not that anybody is around to hang out with anyways. Good thing today is only a four day week. I don't think it's going to be much better then last week. I don't want to go to the Pep rally on Thursday seeing as our class is stupid and just sits there and does nothing the whole time. God, I can't wait to graduate. Only three more years and a qaurter and a half! Yes!
I only got like an hour of sleep last night, I just couldnt' sleep at all. I finally fell asleep at about 4:45. It was terrible.
...just easier than dealin' with the pain