I think I need you to help me say it...
I feel so trivial putting anything up here anymore, as everyone has journals based on real-world events, serious problems, and a general need for attention. I guess I too can relate to the pathetic general need for attention category, but I'll try to keep stuff like that shirt as this "journal" can be read by anyone, and I certainly don't want some people having any idea what I think about on a daily basis
It's recently come to my attention that I've been having a lot of problems lately, mostly emotional problems, but I think my lethargicism is getting the best of me. Pretty much anyone who's known me for a few years knows that whenever it's winter, I just become less fun to be around. I'm not has happy in general, I mope around a whole lot more (yeah, it's possible), and I just don't have enthusiasm. A lot of it is based on that none of my friends enjoy sports as much as I do and I never get to just get out and be active during the warmer days of fall. I'm not sure exactly why I'm so down with the coming of winter, after all, it's my favorite season(what with my birthday, christmas, and getting to see Scott and Byron).
"Stop whining."
Thanks Arnold, I was getting off-track
Well, it'd be out of character if I made a long journal entry...so let's try that out. I'm visiting Scott again after Thanksgiving. Hopefully going to another of Jens' parties, hanging out with Morgan, Ryan, John, Mike, Nick, and Sarah. I'm contemplating going to PETsMART to see if Lydia and Sara are still working there, but I'm still not sure if my conscience could take more than 5 steps inside the door.
More and more, every day, I don't know where my life is going. Am I trying to live in VA or am I tring to have a life in NH? Adam got into VCU and I would love to move down there to live so close to Scott and Adam, plus there's rumors of Chris and Byron moving there as well. But on the other hand, the HHC has been talking about getting apartments a lot more lately, and me Hank, and Jon have been talking about starting a business. With a plan in NH, it seems the more sensible choice.....by my heart aches to be back in Richmond.
I'll stop boring the 4 people who will probably read this thing, and for those of you who were expecting more from my journal entry.. (insert really loud gun induced car explosions and jetpacks wicked awesome movie scene starring the PPA and mountain dew here). I haven't left a quote or song lyrics yet in a journal thing...but it does seem like a good filler and these artist are probably better at describing my feelings with their own feelings than I am myself with my poetic talents. So...
"I tried so hard, and I've done my part. And not to mention, most of all of yours. Try and feel. Try and listen. Try and think of what you're missing. Try and look into my eyes.....try. Goodbye. Sing a song for me and tell me how you'll never leave my side."
It's recently come to my attention that I've been having a lot of problems lately, mostly emotional problems, but I think my lethargicism is getting the best of me. Pretty much anyone who's known me for a few years knows that whenever it's winter, I just become less fun to be around. I'm not has happy in general, I mope around a whole lot more (yeah, it's possible), and I just don't have enthusiasm. A lot of it is based on that none of my friends enjoy sports as much as I do and I never get to just get out and be active during the warmer days of fall. I'm not sure exactly why I'm so down with the coming of winter, after all, it's my favorite season(what with my birthday, christmas, and getting to see Scott and Byron).
"Stop whining."
Thanks Arnold, I was getting off-track
Well, it'd be out of character if I made a long journal entry...so let's try that out. I'm visiting Scott again after Thanksgiving. Hopefully going to another of Jens' parties, hanging out with Morgan, Ryan, John, Mike, Nick, and Sarah. I'm contemplating going to PETsMART to see if Lydia and Sara are still working there, but I'm still not sure if my conscience could take more than 5 steps inside the door.
More and more, every day, I don't know where my life is going. Am I trying to live in VA or am I tring to have a life in NH? Adam got into VCU and I would love to move down there to live so close to Scott and Adam, plus there's rumors of Chris and Byron moving there as well. But on the other hand, the HHC has been talking about getting apartments a lot more lately, and me Hank, and Jon have been talking about starting a business. With a plan in NH, it seems the more sensible choice.....by my heart aches to be back in Richmond.
I'll stop boring the 4 people who will probably read this thing, and for those of you who were expecting more from my journal entry.. (insert really loud gun induced car explosions and jetpacks wicked awesome movie scene starring the PPA and mountain dew here). I haven't left a quote or song lyrics yet in a journal thing...but it does seem like a good filler and these artist are probably better at describing my feelings with their own feelings than I am myself with my poetic talents. So...
"I tried so hard, and I've done my part. And not to mention, most of all of yours. Try and feel. Try and listen. Try and think of what you're missing. Try and look into my eyes.....try. Goodbye. Sing a song for me and tell me how you'll never leave my side."