Aug 29, 2011 04:34
have a very merry day,
modern au,
we are some crazy ladies,
dystopian au,
pimping like we've never pimped before,
the eagle,
sunday service,
bookverse,
kink meme,
movieverse,
alternate universes,
canon,
the eagle of the ninth
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Hopefully someone who can write quickly will do it in the meantime though because its such a tantalising idea.
Marcus all alone and broken, and so desperately in need of comfort.
Like I imagine he didn't let himself need comfort too often in his life, he bore everything quite alone and stoic, in a proper manly, Roman, defensive, warrior way, but there was something about his trust in Esca's worth and nobility twinned with Esca's apparent refusal to note his weakness or to feel shame - or even quite resentment in taking care of him, that let Marcus accept Esca's care and attention.
The satisfaction of this deep rooted human need to give up and share himself in his weakness after so many years of ignoring the impulse is so deep to him. So pleasing that he relies upon it.
He comes to rely upon Esca's help so much, it changes him, removes his instinct to keep to himself.
So when he is in the seal village, betrayed, humiliated and powerless and every attempt to look noble and Roman and strong is stripped from him, all he can think is that he should bear the pain and shame alone, and cope stoically as he would have done before he met Esca. But he has learnt that it feels so much better to be soothed by someone else, passing your burdens to them however you can without self consciousness.
He imagines Esca is hostile, but even for him to provide comfort him by killing Marcus, or striking him to distract him with physical pain from the sorrow in his head seems right/wanted because then he doesn't have to deal with the pain himself, all alone.
Its violence that he thinks he will receive, but when he like sleepwalks there in all his rampant insensible need Esca does not want to harm him really... and broken, dependant Marcus is sooooooo 'grateful' to him (in an oral sense), and yeah mmmmmmm....
/musing
GAH.
I just make everything too complicated and complex when I think about it, and my brain has little space in it/attention span from my pervaliscious thoughts elsewhere so the whole thing is just making me a bit waaaaaaha and head hurty/sadfacey but I am determined to muddle through it.
slooooooowly
GOD I WANT THE PRISON AU LIKE BURNING TOO. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN ITZ.
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I would lock you in my basement and shout "write! write!" through this small window up near the ceiling :D
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Seriously I'm gonna write this, but like I said, takes me so long to make sense of things and when I don't make sense of them fic is no good so yeah I'm working on it. SLOW BRANE IS SLOOOOOW.
I am watching an rewatching The Eagle every spare waking moment I have though. God their love is soooooo intense, and Esca is a beautiful, beautiful thing throughout.
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I know what you're saying, but seriously, what you served us? It more than makes sense. It's an absolutely beautiful analysis of character's motivation and headspace, IT MAKES ALL THE SENSE IN THE WORLD.
God, he is. We re-watched it yesterday and we wept. WEPT AND SQUEED.
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You've told me you were thinking about it before and I was like 'god I hope that's still on', cause you had so much insight into that scene that it would be such a shame to leave it at that.
THIS ♥
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I will do though, I must, it's my duty.
HAVE BEEN WATCHING THE EAGLE LAWTS YAH AND DAMN SUCH GOOD PAIN PORN ---- I mean besides all the regular sex based porn.
Seriously awesome prompt.
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It is! Now that you have us all stoked up :D
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Fingers X'd.
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Definitely!
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