hope no one reads this rant
Yeah so I definitely hope no one reads this....because I'm just using this is a place to rant. (unfortunately I'm too damn lazy to try and remember how to work LJ to make it a private post.)
Seriously where did it go wrong?
When did I fuck it up so bad I didn't know up from down, front from back or sideways from .... whats the opposite of sideways?
I have friends in jail.
I have friends addicted to shit.
I have friends that just won't do ANYTHING.
Should I still be these peoples friends?
Hell no, it's not healthy... but I can't stop because each and every one of them means something special to me.
Some days I seriously just wish that I could put my life in reverse and hall ass back to high school, just in the hopes that I might be able to fix shit. Unfortunately, like my mother always likes to remind me: You can wish in one hand; shit in the other, and see which ones fills up faster.
How can I go about trying to fix shit if I don't even know where to begin, hell even this rant makes absolutely no sense... then again rants never do :).
I just honestly hope that some day soon I'll actually be able to get shit situated enough that I can find atleast one piece to pick up and fix. Atleast then I'll know that I'm on my way to completing something... getting SOMETHING in my life organized.
Sitting up at 5 o'clock in the morning has really made me sit down and think about some shit though.
In the past couple years I've done some really shitty things that NO BODY would have ever expected from me.
What can you do though? Nothing.
I am just trying to move forward... even though half the time it seems completely impossible.
Ew... that whole damn thing sounds DEPRESSING. lol.
Time to put on that fake shit eatting grin and pretend it's all okay again.
:D Hope everyone else out there in the la la world we like to call the internet is atleast having some fun.
Peace for another 37 weeks.
Seriously where did it go wrong?
When did I fuck it up so bad I didn't know up from down, front from back or sideways from .... whats the opposite of sideways?
I have friends in jail.
I have friends addicted to shit.
I have friends that just won't do ANYTHING.
Should I still be these peoples friends?
Hell no, it's not healthy... but I can't stop because each and every one of them means something special to me.
Some days I seriously just wish that I could put my life in reverse and hall ass back to high school, just in the hopes that I might be able to fix shit. Unfortunately, like my mother always likes to remind me: You can wish in one hand; shit in the other, and see which ones fills up faster.
How can I go about trying to fix shit if I don't even know where to begin, hell even this rant makes absolutely no sense... then again rants never do :).
I just honestly hope that some day soon I'll actually be able to get shit situated enough that I can find atleast one piece to pick up and fix. Atleast then I'll know that I'm on my way to completing something... getting SOMETHING in my life organized.
Sitting up at 5 o'clock in the morning has really made me sit down and think about some shit though.
In the past couple years I've done some really shitty things that NO BODY would have ever expected from me.
What can you do though? Nothing.
I am just trying to move forward... even though half the time it seems completely impossible.
Ew... that whole damn thing sounds DEPRESSING. lol.
Time to put on that fake shit eatting grin and pretend it's all okay again.
:D Hope everyone else out there in the la la world we like to call the internet is atleast having some fun.
Peace for another 37 weeks.