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It's true I believe that I don't deserve to have a charmed kind of life. I've made many mistakes small and large and they have altered my life greatly, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to strive to make the best of it and to find some kind of happiness.
So far, for the moment, I'm pretty happy. I have to admit that i suspect being able to pour out all the crap I'm feeling onto a screen had aided in that. It hasn't extracted everything I feel because I do feel it but it helps to aleviate some of the pressure. I never really put much stock into any kind of journal ever, but now I get it.
I don't want to jinx all of the good things going on but I'm now working 2 jobs and I feel more accomplished. I have a new job at a beauty supply place so I get to use some of my education. I also have been painting again. My goal is to have 12 pieces done by the end of the year. My mom is directing a show at the local community theatre and she's having me as the featured artist during her next show. I get to show off what I can do, not to mention, I could sell some of them if I wanted ^_^
Not that I don't do enough around the theare already...having done at least 1 wig for nearly every show so far this year.
I would also make note that there is a new young man that I've been talking to. It was set up by a mutual friend of ours ans so far, so good.
I just feel very accomplished and it's not exactly the life I'd dreamed of but it's good. Really good.
So far, for the moment, I'm pretty happy. I have to admit that i suspect being able to pour out all the crap I'm feeling onto a screen had aided in that. It hasn't extracted everything I feel because I do feel it but it helps to aleviate some of the pressure. I never really put much stock into any kind of journal ever, but now I get it.
I don't want to jinx all of the good things going on but I'm now working 2 jobs and I feel more accomplished. I have a new job at a beauty supply place so I get to use some of my education. I also have been painting again. My goal is to have 12 pieces done by the end of the year. My mom is directing a show at the local community theatre and she's having me as the featured artist during her next show. I get to show off what I can do, not to mention, I could sell some of them if I wanted ^_^
Not that I don't do enough around the theare already...having done at least 1 wig for nearly every show so far this year.
I would also make note that there is a new young man that I've been talking to. It was set up by a mutual friend of ours ans so far, so good.
I just feel very accomplished and it's not exactly the life I'd dreamed of but it's good. Really good.