nightly cocoa
good evening, dear friends.
it's been a while since i dropped a line here, and i have to confess that i didn't even really have the time to check all your entries lately. i am sorry about it, but there was just too much going on and a quiet hour at home with time to read journals an almost non-existant rarity.
today was an exception. today was very good.
i've worked a lot lately, especially during the last 5 weeks, and i will continue to work 40 hours a week for the next 7 weeks. then i have to move, and university will start in october. i am excited for it, and i even gladly work so much this summer, keeping in mind that if i did n't do the second of the three internship months this summer as well, i'd have to do it next spring, and thus wouldn't have the chance to come to rhode island.
sleeping in, listening to sanctuary sermons throughout the day, talking with my american family for a little more than an hour, even drawing a little, it all fit in the day. and - needless to say, it excites me. it makes me smile with my heart, and having some cocoa, listening to some good and quiet music and aligning words is a beautiful way to end the day.
there are a million other things i'd do, a million things i'd like to tell you, and a billion things i'd like to know. i long for certainty, i long to get out of the "waiting status" now, and as i still wonder when i'll start learning this thing calles patience, i guess i've already started my lessons. distraction is a good way to cope with impatience, but so is a good book, coffee, or even better: prayer and silence. i feel like i'm getting better with this patience, slowly, as the day i'll know comes closer and closer.
(i just opened my notebook again, and a piece of paper fell out, on which is a poem i've written some time ago. it was the first poem i wrote in german since i had been in the u.s. it was written while having a huge cup of coffee, of which i had a lot lately, and simply is called Gedicht (poem).)
it ends with these words (translated here):
black on white:
my secret
revealed
and yet
never known.
and with this, i wish you a good night. sleep well, and thank God for the wonderful days He gives us.
it's been a while since i dropped a line here, and i have to confess that i didn't even really have the time to check all your entries lately. i am sorry about it, but there was just too much going on and a quiet hour at home with time to read journals an almost non-existant rarity.
today was an exception. today was very good.
i've worked a lot lately, especially during the last 5 weeks, and i will continue to work 40 hours a week for the next 7 weeks. then i have to move, and university will start in october. i am excited for it, and i even gladly work so much this summer, keeping in mind that if i did n't do the second of the three internship months this summer as well, i'd have to do it next spring, and thus wouldn't have the chance to come to rhode island.
sleeping in, listening to sanctuary sermons throughout the day, talking with my american family for a little more than an hour, even drawing a little, it all fit in the day. and - needless to say, it excites me. it makes me smile with my heart, and having some cocoa, listening to some good and quiet music and aligning words is a beautiful way to end the day.
there are a million other things i'd do, a million things i'd like to tell you, and a billion things i'd like to know. i long for certainty, i long to get out of the "waiting status" now, and as i still wonder when i'll start learning this thing calles patience, i guess i've already started my lessons. distraction is a good way to cope with impatience, but so is a good book, coffee, or even better: prayer and silence. i feel like i'm getting better with this patience, slowly, as the day i'll know comes closer and closer.
(i just opened my notebook again, and a piece of paper fell out, on which is a poem i've written some time ago. it was the first poem i wrote in german since i had been in the u.s. it was written while having a huge cup of coffee, of which i had a lot lately, and simply is called Gedicht (poem).)
it ends with these words (translated here):
black on white:
my secret
revealed
and yet
never known.
and with this, i wish you a good night. sleep well, and thank God for the wonderful days He gives us.