not giving up

May 07, 2009 10:00

i'm considering creating an indepentdent website for old time's sake. i remember it was around 12 years ago that i first learned the basic commands of html and how thrilling it was to see my mediocre poetry published and standing ready for the world to mock. or obsessively checking my guestbook whenever i got a free moment at a computer between 3rd and 4th period at school. or playing hookey to give myself more time to work on it as i listened to morrissey.

i don't know. it was just a different time, and sometimes things just seem so shallow and lifeless in comparison. sometimes i really miss being a teenager, i miss the sadness and the desperation and the lonliness but more than anything i miss the light shining into my dark places offering a glimpse of hope and a better tomorrow. i can't argue that things are any better or worse now, just different. i just miss the spark of life.
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