now what?
im so overwhelmed with my to-do list.
im frustrated with myself. mostly for the dumb things ive done/let happen.
lkhjfgkhjgf
i told myself that my hs friends would be kept away from my college friends.
why is this so irritating to me?
it shouldnt matter that ______ and my friends are friends with each other.
so why is it still getting under my skin?
ugh.
i submitted some of my photos to the quadrangle. its a campus wide anthology of art and writing by students, staff and faculty.
i got an e-mail saying one of my pieces is going to be published. there's an unveiling banquet and everything in the spring so its pretty legit.
and im unphased by it.
so what? theres plenty of other people with work being published in it too.
ive been congratulated from a couple friends and i dont know what to say.
i dont feel like im deserving of their compliments.
i was talking to a friend about the orientation team interviews and stuff earlier. i got an e-mail requesting me to make an appointment with some guy. well my friend didnt get that e-mail so im assuming ive been selected to be apart of o-team. cool.
i wanted this so bad. i pretty much have it. so why arent i excited?
its as if ive become obsolete.
im not taking pride for the things ive achieved lately.
its annoying. i dont take pride in my achievements like i used to.
my ego has dissolved. not to say i used to bask in all my glory.
but i dont even feel like ive achieved anything. it doesnt matter as much as it used to.
my mom doesnt even know about how im being published or that i pretty much made o-team. i dont feel like it matters.
im scared of my future. being in print design i feel like my talent doesnt even compare to the other kids on my class. but then again i have to remember im in a 300 level class with junior and seniors. i still have a lot to learn obviously. but i ant help but to feel like im not gonna exceed at my major/career goals. its depressing.
its a phase. it will shake loose at some point.
but its just annoying right now.
i dont like talking about myself.
so how do i say the things i want to say?
here i am again. fml
this week cant go by fast enough.
i need spring break.
i want my tattoo.
and a black clove
im frustrated with myself. mostly for the dumb things ive done/let happen.
lkhjfgkhjgf
i told myself that my hs friends would be kept away from my college friends.
why is this so irritating to me?
it shouldnt matter that ______ and my friends are friends with each other.
so why is it still getting under my skin?
ugh.
i submitted some of my photos to the quadrangle. its a campus wide anthology of art and writing by students, staff and faculty.
i got an e-mail saying one of my pieces is going to be published. there's an unveiling banquet and everything in the spring so its pretty legit.
and im unphased by it.
so what? theres plenty of other people with work being published in it too.
ive been congratulated from a couple friends and i dont know what to say.
i dont feel like im deserving of their compliments.
i was talking to a friend about the orientation team interviews and stuff earlier. i got an e-mail requesting me to make an appointment with some guy. well my friend didnt get that e-mail so im assuming ive been selected to be apart of o-team. cool.
i wanted this so bad. i pretty much have it. so why arent i excited?
its as if ive become obsolete.
im not taking pride for the things ive achieved lately.
its annoying. i dont take pride in my achievements like i used to.
my ego has dissolved. not to say i used to bask in all my glory.
but i dont even feel like ive achieved anything. it doesnt matter as much as it used to.
my mom doesnt even know about how im being published or that i pretty much made o-team. i dont feel like it matters.
im scared of my future. being in print design i feel like my talent doesnt even compare to the other kids on my class. but then again i have to remember im in a 300 level class with junior and seniors. i still have a lot to learn obviously. but i ant help but to feel like im not gonna exceed at my major/career goals. its depressing.
its a phase. it will shake loose at some point.
but its just annoying right now.
i dont like talking about myself.
so how do i say the things i want to say?
here i am again. fml
this week cant go by fast enough.
i need spring break.
i want my tattoo.
and a black clove