And so it goes...
Austin.
Austin and I have been through a lot together this past year, and he's stuck by my side through everything. He's helped me figure out who I am, and who I want to be. No matter what happens at the end of the day I know he's there for me no matter what. I'm not sure what I'd do without him in my life.
funny how that was on my myspace still... its gone now - funny how he's doing pretty damn fine without me in his life, and I am alive without him in my every day...its just hard still... idk how to explain it. Theres a void, that I'm sure in due time it'll be numb and hopefully someone else can come in and fill that void...but until then...its there...mocking me, telling me I fucked up just by being me. Oh well. Life goes on. right? right...
I don't really know how else to explain it... it just seems like this hasn't hurt him, like he doesn't miss me, and he doesn't miss having someone to talk to...deep down I know he's a good actor with his emotions, but sometimes I wonder if hes THAT good...does that make sense?
You're now reading the LiveJournal to a 21 year old business woman. Starting December 1st there will be some major changes in my life. I will NEVER have to work 2 jobs again...
I have one final interview on Wednesday of next week but I was told I was hired...I just have to meet with the general manager.
I will be working 9-5
12.00 an hour to start
full benefits
weekends off
holidays off
PAID vacation after 1 year
I'll be moving out of the house I'm living in and will be moving in with Darren, a co-worker of mine (at LNT)'s best friend - I'll be renting the downstairs of his house, with heated floors!! So very excited.
Linens-N-Things' final day is Sunday November 16th 2008... It's bittersweet... I'm buying a bed from them - mattress and boxspring, and the frame for 125 - I'm getting a grown up bed!!! This is what the bed looks like... (the frame)
and this is the bedding I'll get...
That duvet, with the round pillow
and the sheets will be similar to these
I sliced open my thumb really bad yesterday at work - it needs stitches but I don't have insurance, story of my life.
I need sleep its 1am
i'll post again soon.