a nightmare in waking
Victimized, violently shaking.
im sick of trying to figure all of you out ya know why
i dont fucking care
ha
i dont really know why that is so funny but it really is
none of you is all that important to me...
you you just arent wirth the effort anymore
the ones i care for i know and they let me in and dont frustrate me
you guys?
are just a poor substuite for amusement
"I CAN'T FEEL, numb to everything"
my head is fuzzy from lack of sleep but not really tired
just
heavy?
i want my warm comfy place damn you all for not being that...
damn him for really really leaving, his number is disconnected, i guess he didn't lie
fuckkkkkkkkk
damn him for never really being hwat i need so i could never really fall i always had to hold myself up a lil
damn you for lost of innocence
damn you because ive nevr knowen the bliss of an uncomplicated love
if i hate you for anything... of everything that was all the pain and all the bs so many years ago
i hate you for meaning i never loved someone i fulled trusted
which is proably why i want it so bad now..
ugh enough introsepction bullshit for tonight.... i wanna get trashed this weekend...like patron fuckkkkkkkked up
"Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)"
this coma kiss is infinite
best explanation of what ic ant explain
tonight, i'm wrapped up in her
we find each other under
blankets as warm as summer
we are inseparable
our bodies know what they're for
and we give in, we explore
each other desperate for
something inseparable
this coma kiss is infinite,
and I may take your tongue if you stay
we are this dream - fluid and intricate
we made it that way
every nightmare needs an influence
and your body turning blue as you lay
directly next to me colors this one
in bluish hues and darker greys
trace the path the blood will flow
the lines I wear around my wrist
are there to prove that I exist
was a perfect white
against the perfect lines, from last perfect night
I'm the perfect picture of complacency thats all i feel
I take my medicine and make them believe that i'm a better man
they make life worth living;
hearts worth healing
i dont fucking care
ha
i dont really know why that is so funny but it really is
none of you is all that important to me...
you you just arent wirth the effort anymore
the ones i care for i know and they let me in and dont frustrate me
you guys?
are just a poor substuite for amusement
"I CAN'T FEEL, numb to everything"
my head is fuzzy from lack of sleep but not really tired
just
heavy?
i want my warm comfy place damn you all for not being that...
damn him for really really leaving, his number is disconnected, i guess he didn't lie
fuckkkkkkkkk
damn him for never really being hwat i need so i could never really fall i always had to hold myself up a lil
damn you for lost of innocence
damn you because ive nevr knowen the bliss of an uncomplicated love
if i hate you for anything... of everything that was all the pain and all the bs so many years ago
i hate you for meaning i never loved someone i fulled trusted
which is proably why i want it so bad now..
ugh enough introsepction bullshit for tonight.... i wanna get trashed this weekend...like patron fuckkkkkkkked up
"Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)"
this coma kiss is infinite
best explanation of what ic ant explain
tonight, i'm wrapped up in her
we find each other under
blankets as warm as summer
we are inseparable
our bodies know what they're for
and we give in, we explore
each other desperate for
something inseparable
this coma kiss is infinite,
and I may take your tongue if you stay
we are this dream - fluid and intricate
we made it that way
every nightmare needs an influence
and your body turning blue as you lay
directly next to me colors this one
in bluish hues and darker greys
trace the path the blood will flow
the lines I wear around my wrist
are there to prove that I exist
was a perfect white
against the perfect lines, from last perfect night
I'm the perfect picture of complacency thats all i feel
I take my medicine and make them believe that i'm a better man
they make life worth living;
hearts worth healing