from likelast week

[powerhousechica]

did he really call me her name?
proably not

i know its only because hes tired and i heard what i wanna hear

the way he looked at me while talking to her

i feel so
dead inside

he has the way to make me feel so dead and hollow inside

i hate how much i wanna be loved
what i do to have just a little

how much i let go to hold so little

why cant my heart listen to my head

why cant i need what i want and not what i need

i dont wanna let go
i dont want him to drive home to her
i want him here
now
not mad that im unhappy

but scared and worried for me

i want him to spend his drive wondering how he can make me happy
not wondering about his real life

i wanna be his real mother fucking life

i wanna throw up

and then he calls me

says baby i love you im sorry

he knows
he realises what he does to me
which is why he always trys to brek up with me

but i wont let him

i love him

i mean he knows
he realises
he knows me he understands me like no one else
he sees what no one else ever has

thats why im still with him

in the end
hes like no one ive ever met

i really just want someone to love me like i love

and ive been loved but not like i love not in the
i understand you i see you for who you are and i love you anyway

justthat he can see it and sees what i do and feel

is more then anyone has ever been

so i cant walk away sayinf w/e he may know but he hasnt done anything about it
until i know he wont not just that he hasnt

because for the first time i have someone who could
could love me like i need
and i cant just walk away