Recent realizations...
Some of this is probably due, on at least a subconscious level, to the fact that i have to take care of a new, tiny, helpless and incredibly beautiful person, who is all at once annoying, exhausting, and completely fulfilling as any good work would be. Anyway...
- I don't really like anime that much. Or at least, i'm far less likely to like something BECAUSE it's anime. I won't discount it because it's anime, but i won't automatically like it. Part of this is because i'm growing less fond of the "style," and i'm more interested in the quality of the product. I'm incredibly critical of animation in general anyway, so when i see anime that's really popular but has shitty animation, or relies on a lot of visual cliches, i get really pissed.
- I'm a lot less passionate about photography and modeling. i've been out of modeling for 4 years now, so that hasn't exactly been a priority anyway, but i have been a photographer on occasion, and honestly i'm losing my passion for it. Maybe it's just because my focus has shifted. i do still LIKE photography, and i have a very large appreciation for it (maybe it's just because i'm a visual person in general) but i'm not interested in pursuing even a passing career in it. I think i'll keep it as a hobby though, cuz it is fun.
- I've been really focused on writing since just before Eve was born (she's six weeks old, now!), but especially afterward. I've had a project that's drifting ever so slowly toward fruition since before T and i got married, but now i'm going pretty full tilt on it. I've made more REAL progress in the last two weeks than i had in the last three and a half years, and i don't know if that's BECAUSE i'm a father, or if it's because i quit my job and have been working from home so i just have more time to really focus on it anyway. Either way, it's really moving. By monday i should hit a major benchmark.
I think that all of this is the result of a decision not to spread myself so thin. I'd had all these different irons in the fire (comics, animation, photography, illustration, writing, and numerous variations and combinations of all of the aforementioned) that i couldn't really solidly focus on any one of them. Now that i've narrowed my focus to just completing ONE THING, it's moving so fast that i'm actually getting a little bit nervous. But i guess that could just be what happens when you spend your whole life never really finishing anything. Maybe i'm tired of just being a dreamer, and i want to actually be something.
"Why won't you do what you dream?"
"Don't dream it, be it."
Those two quotes came to my head immediately, though they are from completely different types of movies... I guess that shows the range of my experience or some such.
Anyway, forward!
- I don't really like anime that much. Or at least, i'm far less likely to like something BECAUSE it's anime. I won't discount it because it's anime, but i won't automatically like it. Part of this is because i'm growing less fond of the "style," and i'm more interested in the quality of the product. I'm incredibly critical of animation in general anyway, so when i see anime that's really popular but has shitty animation, or relies on a lot of visual cliches, i get really pissed.
- I'm a lot less passionate about photography and modeling. i've been out of modeling for 4 years now, so that hasn't exactly been a priority anyway, but i have been a photographer on occasion, and honestly i'm losing my passion for it. Maybe it's just because my focus has shifted. i do still LIKE photography, and i have a very large appreciation for it (maybe it's just because i'm a visual person in general) but i'm not interested in pursuing even a passing career in it. I think i'll keep it as a hobby though, cuz it is fun.
- I've been really focused on writing since just before Eve was born (she's six weeks old, now!), but especially afterward. I've had a project that's drifting ever so slowly toward fruition since before T and i got married, but now i'm going pretty full tilt on it. I've made more REAL progress in the last two weeks than i had in the last three and a half years, and i don't know if that's BECAUSE i'm a father, or if it's because i quit my job and have been working from home so i just have more time to really focus on it anyway. Either way, it's really moving. By monday i should hit a major benchmark.
I think that all of this is the result of a decision not to spread myself so thin. I'd had all these different irons in the fire (comics, animation, photography, illustration, writing, and numerous variations and combinations of all of the aforementioned) that i couldn't really solidly focus on any one of them. Now that i've narrowed my focus to just completing ONE THING, it's moving so fast that i'm actually getting a little bit nervous. But i guess that could just be what happens when you spend your whole life never really finishing anything. Maybe i'm tired of just being a dreamer, and i want to actually be something.
"Why won't you do what you dream?"
"Don't dream it, be it."
Those two quotes came to my head immediately, though they are from completely different types of movies... I guess that shows the range of my experience or some such.
Anyway, forward!