Not to mention, of course, hating dear old Mom and Dad
[I actually quite like my parents]
So this week at my church was Summer With the Arts, this children's camp my parents run at my church. I've been doing it for 13 years or so, first as a student, now as a helper. It has stayed the same in a lot of ways since I was little, so a lot of it is really nostalgic and I love seeing the children having fun, being exposed to acting and music and dance.
Anyway, that was my week. But the most pressing issue right now is that I have a crush, the first big one I've had in a while. This is unusual for me; for about a year and a half, my hands have been clean of any thoughts of romance or dating. Personally, I think its nice and all, but a bit overwhelming, and there are more important things to deal with. You know that feeling you get, around pre-teen age, when you have your first major crush? The one that makes your stomach feel all weird (NOTHING else can it make it feel that way, that odd feeling that is simultaneously nauseating and ecstatic)? And you realize (in my opinion, falsely) that THIS, this thing called love, more specifically this ROMANTIC love, is what life's all about? I was long gone from that feeling - in fact, the polar opposite. To me, romance and crushes the likes of my middle school years were a tad immature.
Which is why it is odd that I am finally crushing again. Even worse, on someone I hardly know. I had convinced myself that IF the time ever came where I had another crush, it would be because I had taken time to get to know the person, because I was attracted to the person on an emotional level. But now the feeling is back again - when I see his face, I feel it once again, the same feeling I felt when I looked at Hayley Cavataro in the 4th grade, Paige Kriegel in the 6th, Katie Swofford in 7th.
The illogical crush has once again returned to my life.
So this week at my church was Summer With the Arts, this children's camp my parents run at my church. I've been doing it for 13 years or so, first as a student, now as a helper. It has stayed the same in a lot of ways since I was little, so a lot of it is really nostalgic and I love seeing the children having fun, being exposed to acting and music and dance.
Anyway, that was my week. But the most pressing issue right now is that I have a crush, the first big one I've had in a while. This is unusual for me; for about a year and a half, my hands have been clean of any thoughts of romance or dating. Personally, I think its nice and all, but a bit overwhelming, and there are more important things to deal with. You know that feeling you get, around pre-teen age, when you have your first major crush? The one that makes your stomach feel all weird (NOTHING else can it make it feel that way, that odd feeling that is simultaneously nauseating and ecstatic)? And you realize (in my opinion, falsely) that THIS, this thing called love, more specifically this ROMANTIC love, is what life's all about? I was long gone from that feeling - in fact, the polar opposite. To me, romance and crushes the likes of my middle school years were a tad immature.
Which is why it is odd that I am finally crushing again. Even worse, on someone I hardly know. I had convinced myself that IF the time ever came where I had another crush, it would be because I had taken time to get to know the person, because I was attracted to the person on an emotional level. But now the feeling is back again - when I see his face, I feel it once again, the same feeling I felt when I looked at Hayley Cavataro in the 4th grade, Paige Kriegel in the 6th, Katie Swofford in 7th.
The illogical crush has once again returned to my life.