Paralyzed Part 4
Before I get to the story, I just want to say...
I got Thin Air. And it rocks. I just finished it today.
I LOVE DAVID AND JO! The best bit was in the excerpt of the next book.. I went OMFG when David proposed to Jo <3. Then I went :D:D:D:D cos I love them as a couple <333333333333333333333. OMG! I can't believe we have to wait until August 2008 for the next book :(. That's a year away, way too long! I'll be 21 by the time it comes out. I want to see more of engaged David and Jo (cos she said yes XD).
Thin Air is possibly my 2nd favourite Weather Warden book to date - Windfall is still my fave, but I think TA is 2nd equal with Firestorm. But then again Ill Wind is another of my faves cos it has the beginnings of Jo/David and *that* hot tub scene <3.
So Thin Air = big thumbs up. It had my 3 fave characters (Jo, David & Lewis) in all big roles, and a great storyline and even a sex scene <3.
Speaking of sex scenes... there's one in this installment XDDD <3.
It was a couple of days later and we were in Miami. I was planning to see my family on the weekend before our show - I could have gone to my house to stay while I was there but I preferred to stay with Shawn. We still ordered separate rooms but I spent most of my time in Shawn’s room. We hadn’t made love yet, but I knew I was falling for him more and more everyday. It was Friday night and Shawn had just switched on the TV to Friday Night Smackdown. We always watched it to see how our SD friends were doing on their show - we always swapped over to each others shows, but Shawn hadn’t made an appearance on SD in months (I had though, I did a big 8 person divas tag match). It was a usual Friday show on SD until they came to the Raw Rebound - where they showed an important bit from the Raw show every week. Of course, the segment was about Shawn’s match with Khali, me accompanying John to the ring and then Shawn confronting John. What else would it be? I sighed. I noticed as we watched the footage that Shawn was looking angry.
“It’s in the past, Shawn” I reminded him. He visibly relaxed at my words and took my hand. The programme switched back to the arena and one of the commentators said “And we have some breaking news - a camera caught Shawn and his valet May in the locker-room after Monday Night Raw” - to our horror they showed a clip of us kissing. Shawn and I looked at each other and our mouths dropped open. “They were openly kissing in Shawn’s locker-room - even with the 23 year age gap between them. There will be more about this shocking revelation on next week’s Raw” The commentator continued.
“Oh my lord” Shawn murmured. I certainly hadn’t noticed a camera anywhere near us, I thought we were completely alone. “I guess we’ll have to come clean, May” He looked sideways at me.
“I don’t know, Shawn. What if it makes us less popular?” I said, getting worried.
“Vince will ask us to do a promo on the show on Monday either confirming or denying it. I’d rather confirm it, I want everybody to know how I feel about you” Shawn tilted my head towards his. I looked into his eyes and realised he was right. So did I.
“They mentioned the age gap, I knew they would bring it up…” I said.
“Don’t worry about what everybody thinks, sweetheart. The only person’s opinion I care about is yours” Shawn answered. He kissed me softly. I wrapped my arms around him and sighed. My cellphone started to ring, suddenly. Without breaking away from Shawn I felt around behind me until I found it and put it to my ear.
“Hello?” I said, as Shawn pulled me onto his lap.
“Hello darling! We heard you’re in town!” My Mum’s voice said.
“Hey Mum! Yeah, we are. Raw has come to Miami, finally” I said. I felt Shawn place a kiss on the back of my neck and smiled.
“We heard you have a new boyfriend. Your father and I would like to meet him. Would he like to come to dinner tomorrow night?” Mum asked. I froze. I didn’t know if that was such a good idea. Mum and Dad obviously didn’t know the man in question was Shawn.
“Um, let me ask him” I said and put my hand over the mouthpiece. I shifted around so I could look at Shawn.
“Mum and Dad want to meet my new boyfriend, meaning you. They want to have dinner tomorrow. Should we go?” I asked, biting my lip.
“Don’t you want your parents to know who your boyfriend is?” Shawn asked. I noticed a twinkle in his eyes.
“Of course I do, but you know they won’t be happy with the age difference. They weren’t happy when they found out I was your valet, remember?” I answered. That had been a disastrous meeting - Mum and Dad were not pleased when they found out I was working with a 40 year old guy.
“Sweetheart, if they love you, they’ll accept us being together. Let’s go” Shawn smiled a sexy smile. I breathed out deeply and put the phone back to my ear.
“He says yes. We’ll see you tomorrow Mum” I said, trying to keep my voice steady.
“Wonderful. Anything we should know about him?” Mum answered, sounding pleased. She wouldn’t be so pleased when she found out who he was.
“Let’s wait until tomorrow when you meet him” I replied. I said bye and hung up. “I really hope this isn’t a bad idea” I said to Shawn.
“It’ll be fine” He replied. I remembered the last time he told me that, everything went wrong.
The next night, I stopped my car outside my Mum and Dad’s place (I have my own place down here and my own car, although I don’t use either of them much). I turned off the ignition and just sat there. Shawn in the passenger seat beside me, squeezed my hand reassuringly.
“You can do this, May. After the initial shock, they’ll be fine” He said.
“Are you sure?” I said. Because I certainly wasn’t.
“Trust me” Shawn leaned forward and brushed a soft kiss across my lips. When he pulled away I let out a deep breath.
“You go in first, I’ll get the wine and then join you” He added. I nodded and got out of the car. Shawn busied himself with getting the wine from the trunk and I went up the path to the door. I rung the doorbell. Mum opened the door and broke into a smile.
“May, darling!” She hugged me, then pulled back. “Where is he?” She asked.
“He’s getting the wine from the trunk, he’ll be here in a minute” I replied, trying to keep calm. Dad and my older sister Jenny appeared and both gave me a hug. Shawn came walking up the path, holding the wine bottles.
“That’s the guy you valet for. Where’s your boyfriend?” Jenny asked, looking puzzled.
“That is my boyfriend. Mum, Dad… Shawn and I are together” I said quickly. Shawn came up behind me and wrapped his free arm around my waist.
“Hello Mr and Mrs Smith, nice to see you again” He grinned. Mum and Dad were speechless. But they couldn’t be rude and say anything because Shawn was a guest in our house.
“Oh… do come in Shawn” Mum said, after a very awkward silence. Shawn and I both stepped in the house. “Shawn, you go in the living room. We need to speak to our daughter” She continued. I swallowed deeply. Shawn squeezed me tight then let go of me. He disappeared into the living room and I was faced with Mum and Dad.
“May, that man is 41 years old. Why are you with him?” Dad asked. He looked furious.
“Dad, I’m 18 years old! I’m old enough to choose my own boyfriends. Shawn is amazing and sweet and perfect for me!” I said. I had to stand up for Shawn, they hardly knew him.
“He is a lot older then you, May. There’s 23 years between you! You’re still a teenager! He is taking advantage of you and you just don’t see it!” Dad exclaimed.
“Dad! He is not taking advantage of me. I chose to be with him and I don’t care about the age difference. You don’t know him like I do!” I said, aware my voice was getting louder. I knew Shawn could hear our whole conversation from the living room. I didn’t want him to hear my parents badmouthing him.
“He’s brainwashed you, May. For God’s sake, why can’t you go out with somebody your own age?” Dad lost his temper.
“You guys wanted to meet my boyfriend and you’ve met him. Can we just have dinner and try to act civil? He’s a guest in our house, you have to treat him with respect!” I shouted. I knew this was a bad idea.
“Fine” Dad turned on his heel and walked into the kitchen. Mum sighed deeply and followed him.
I went into the living room. Shawn was walking around looking at ornaments but he stopped when I came in.
“How much of that did you hear?” I asked, feeling like I could cry. Shawn gave me a hug.
“All of it. Don’t worry about what your father thinks, babe. It’s better that he knows directly from you. I love what you said about me, though” He smiled a sweet understanding smile.
“What?” I said, burying my face in his shoulder.
“When you said I was sweet, amazing and perfect. I think the same about you” He replied, holding me tight. We stayed in an embrace until Mum called us for dinner. Nervously, I took Shawn’s hand and we went into the dining room. Thankfully Dad sat at the head of the table - I sat next to Shawn and across from Jenny. She was the only one who didn’t seem annoyed I was with Shawn. She mouthed to me ‘Great choice’ as Mum served up the meal, which was a roast. I smiled back at her, touching Shawn’s leg under the table. He grinned and touched me back. We all ate - Mum kept the subject neutral asking Shawn and I how the wrestling was going (they don’t watch it). We told them about our new storyline (the whole thing with John Cena). I noticed Dad would not stop glaring at Shawn. I was getting sick of it and apparently so was Shawn, who had kept a cool demeanour until now.
“I don’t mean to be rude, but why do you keep staring at me?” He asked, looking directly at Dad. I bit my lip.
“Why do you feel the need to be with my daughter? Can’t you find somebody of your own age?” Dad replied. Somebody your age, Dad? I thought. My Mum and Dad had kids early - Mum had Jenny when was 20. Shawn was only 4 years younger then Dad - Shawn was 41, and Dad was 45.
“Love knows no bounds, Mr Smith. You can’t help who you fall for” Shawn answered. He took my hand under the table and squeezed it firmly.
“So you admit you’ve fallen for May? Someone 20 years younger then you?” Dad said. I wished Dad would just shut up, he was embarrassing himself.
“Yes, why else would I be here meeting her parents? Mr Smith, I think you need to realise that May isn’t a little girl anymore and that she’s old enough to date who she wants” Shawn answered. I smiled, he knew exactly how to handle Dad’s annoying questions.
“How dare you talk to me like that!” Dad shouted.
“DAD! Leave him alone. If you don’t start being civil, we’re leaving” I broke in. I knew Dad wouldn’t want me to go as he and Mum only saw me once every couple of months because of my WWE commitments. Dad begrudgingly shut up and the rest of dinner managed to stay civil. We stuck around for another half an hour, then I made excuses, saying we had a promo event to go to, then dragged Shawn out of the house.
Outside in the car, Shawn turned to me. “Why did you say we had a promo event? You know we don’t” He asked.
“Oh come on Shawn, it was torture in there. They obviously hate the idea of us being together. I couldn’t stand it” I put my head in my hands. “I wish I could agree with you when you say my parent’s opinions don’t matter, but they do to me,” I added.
“May, I know you respect your parents and want them to like me, but I don’t think it’s going to happen” Shawn touched my shoulder gently. I looked at the floor through my hands. This was a disaster. Sometimes I wondered whether being with Shawn was worth the effort.
“Shawn… I sometimes wonder whether this is worth the effort” I said, continuing to stare at the floor.
“What?” Shawn asked, sounding surprised.
“The odds seem to be stacked against us. Nobody wants us to be together,” I answered.
“I want us to be together. Does that count for anything?” Shawn said. He sounded hurt. I hadn’t looked at him since we’d left the house.
“It’s just so hard, Shawn! We constantly fight and we run into hurdles at every turn” I squeezed my eyes shut.
“We’ve overcome most other hurdles together, why not this one? I think it just makes us stronger,” Shawn replied. “And as for the fights, yes they’re fiery but the make up bit is always amazing” He continued, referring to our screaming match in the hotel in Pennsylvania and then our passionate make up session.
I finally brought my head up from my hands. Shawn had his head tilted to one side, he looked absolutely adorable. At that moment I knew it was definitely worth the effort. I also knew I was falling in love with him. I wasn’t sure whether to tell him or not as I didn’t know if he felt that strongly about me as I did about him.
“Come here, babe” Shawn held out his arms to me, which I gratefully fell into. I wrapped my arms around him.
“Shawn, if I wanted to tell you something and I wasn’t sure of how you’d react, would you want to know what I wanted to tell you?” I asked.
“That’s a pretty cryptic question, sweetheart. Why? Do you have something you want to tell me?” Shawn replied, stroking my hair.
“I don’t know what you’d say” I admitted.
“If it’s something to do with us, I want to know” Shawn held me at arm’s length. That just made it harder as I could now see his eyes. He looked into my eyes. “Tell me, baby” He continued.
“Shawn… I…” I attempted to say what was on my mind, but stopped. Shawn’s piercing eyes penetrated mine. I swallowed deeply. “I, I’m falling in love with you” I finally said, softly. I continued to stare into his eyes.
“Oh, sweetheart…” Shawn whispered. He never broke eye contact with me. He didn’t say anything for the longest time. I bit my lip, he didn’t feel the same way. I was about to say something, but he placed his finger on my lips to silence me. “I tried to deny it for the longest time, I thought ‘no Shawn you can’t be in love with May, she’s only 18 and doesn’t fancy you’ - but when I kissed you and you kissed me back, I didn’t try to hold my feelings back… I’m falling in love with you, too…” Shawn said. My heart melted at his little speech.
“Shawn, you’re so perfect” I murmured, letting him pull me back into his arms again.
“No, you’re perfect” Shawn replied, kissing the top of my head. “We’re perfect for each other” He added after a moment. I let out a deep breath of relief. It was a big step for me to tell him that.
After one of the biggest moments in our relationship so far, we drove back to the hotel. Both Shawn and I were in extremely good moods, and I managed to avoid Shawn’s mood turning sour when I spotted John Cena in the lobby. I pushed Shawn ahead of me to the elevator so he wouldn’t see him. I waved to John who waved back - Shawn was pushing the elevator button and didn’t see him. I breathed a sigh of relief and followed him into the elevator. In Shawn’s room, we flopped onto the couch and switched on the TV.
“Hey babe, I’m gonna take a shower” I said, after I’d watched Shawn flip channels for a couple of minutes.
“Sure” Shawn replied, sending me a wink. I raised my eyebrows and went into the bathroom. I stripped off and got in. I was wetting my hair when there was a knock on the door.
“Shawn, I’m having a shower!” I called. I’d just told him that five minutes ago. Men, I thought, rolling my eyes. They never listen!
“I know… I thought I’d join you” Shawn opened the door. I bit my lip. If he did, it would be the first time he’d see me naked. I peered around the shower curtain.
“Are you sure?” I asked. I wondered if he could see the worry in my eyes.
“Sweetheart, trust me” Shawn answered. I ducked back behind the curtain, and turned to face the stream of water. I was nervous. I jumped when I felt Shawn touch me from behind. He wrapped his arms around my waist, and I felt his body press up against mine. I was shaking slightly, and tried to push it away. This was Shawn I was with, he wouldn’t hurt me. Shawn gently moved my hair from my shoulders and started to kiss my neck. “Relax, baby…” He murmured.
“I’m trying” I answered. I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on Shawn kissing my neck. I bit down on my lip again as pleasurable feelings rushed through me. Soon, I moaned out loud.
“See, there we go” Shawn whispered. “Let me see you,” He continued. He attempted to turn me around, but I grabbed his arms.
“Stop…” I said. Tears welled up in my eyes, what was I doing?
“Babe, it’s ok. It’s me, you can trust me. I just want to see how beautiful you are,” Shawn said. I didn’t let go of his arms, but he easily overpowered me and pulled them from my grip. I didn’t answer, but I did let him slowly turn me around. Shawn looked me up and down then pulled me into a hug. “You’re absolutely beautiful, darling,” He whispered. He tilted my head towards his and kissed me softly. I couldn’t get over the fact that I’d just let Shawn see me naked. His body felt so good pressed up against mine, though. The kiss got deeper and deeper until Shawn had backed me up against the shower wall. He pinned me there, and slid one hand down my body, while his other tangled in my wet hair. I felt him slide his hand between my legs, forcing my thighs apart. A rush of panic shot through me. Then I thought ‘May, it’s Shawn. He won’t hurt you.’ Shawn pulled away from our kiss, and I wondered why, until I felt his fingers enter me. I gasped out loud, and my hips automatically moved up to meet his fingers. Shawn smiled.
“I wasn’t expecting you to move your hips” He whispered, as he started to slide his fingers in and out of me.
“Me neither” I admitted. It felt so amazing, I didn’t want to lose control straight away because then he might stop. Shawn went back to kissing my neck while he continued working his magic.
“Oh, Shawn…” I breathed out, as pleasure soared through me.
“Does it feel good, baby?” He asked, his eyes penetrating mine.
“You know it does” I answered.
“Good… I think it’s time…” Shawn gave me a smile that made my knees go weak - if he hadn’t been holding me up I would have fallen. I knew he was right, I didn’t want to stop now.
“I want you to make love to me,” I said, softly. I knew I wanted Shawn to be my first, I wanted to lose my virginity to him.
“You don’t know how long I’ve been waiting for this,” Shawn replied. His voice was husky and full of passion. He positioned me so it wouldn’t be uncomfortable - as he was almost a foot taller then I was. Somehow it wasn’t a disadvantage. Wrapping his arms around my body, he moved me in between his legs.
“Are you ready, babe? There’s no going back after this” Shawn said. I nodded.
“I want you” I whispered. Shawn smiled again, and I felt him enter me. Since it was my first time, it started to hurt. I cried out in pain, it hurt a lot more then I was expecting it to. I felt a couple of tears escape my eyes and roll down my cheeks.
“Shhh, sweetheart… it’s ok, it’ll only hurt for a minute” Shawn said. He reached up and tenderly wiped the tears from my cheeks. I bit down on my lip again, hard. It hurt so damned much. More tears escaped my eyes. Shawn kept gently wiping them away. He was being so perfect and understanding. I wasn’t crying because of him, but because it hurt.
But slowly and surely, the pain started to ebb away, being replaced by an absolutely pleasurable sensation. After a minute or so, I let out a little moan.
“There we go, baby… concentrate on the good feelings” Shawn murmured. He started to move in and out of me, slowly moving his hips back and forth. As he did this, he resumed kissing my neck. I slid my arms around him and threw my head back. It now felt amazing. I started to moan Shawn’s name. Somehow I knew hearing me say his name like that made him hot. Shawn raised his head up and kissed me hard on the lips. Our kiss was passionate and extremely hot. I knew Shawn was nearing orgasm and so was I. We continued kissing deeply until Shawn went tense in my arms. I felt a warmth inside me and knew he’d orgasmed.
“May… oh sweetheart…” He murmured, stroking my hair back from my face. Just then I had my orgasm. It was mind-blowing and if Shawn hadn’t been holding me, I would have collapsed.
“Oh, Shawn… oh my god” I moaned out. I leant against his strong form, trying to catch my breath.
“How was that for a first time?” Shawn whispered, picking me up in his arms. He turned the shower off and got out. I didn’t answer, just rested my head on his shoulder. Shawn wrapped us both in large fluffy towels and then carried me out to the main room. He put me in the bed and then joined me.
“Mmm… I think you should get rid of your towel” I said, tugging on the towel wrapped around his waist.
“Only if you get rid of yours” Shawn laughed. I let him pull mine off and then managed to get his off. He enveloped my naked body in his arms and gave me a soft, sweet kiss. I was all warm and very happy, all cuddled up with him - I had never felt so comfortable or safe in my entire life. I drifted off to sleep.
I got Thin Air. And it rocks. I just finished it today.
I LOVE DAVID AND JO! The best bit was in the excerpt of the next book.. I went OMFG when David proposed to Jo <3. Then I went :D:D:D:D cos I love them as a couple <333333333333333333333. OMG! I can't believe we have to wait until August 2008 for the next book :(. That's a year away, way too long! I'll be 21 by the time it comes out. I want to see more of engaged David and Jo (cos she said yes XD).
Thin Air is possibly my 2nd favourite Weather Warden book to date - Windfall is still my fave, but I think TA is 2nd equal with Firestorm. But then again Ill Wind is another of my faves cos it has the beginnings of Jo/David and *that* hot tub scene <3.
So Thin Air = big thumbs up. It had my 3 fave characters (Jo, David & Lewis) in all big roles, and a great storyline and even a sex scene <3.
Speaking of sex scenes... there's one in this installment XDDD <3.
It was a couple of days later and we were in Miami. I was planning to see my family on the weekend before our show - I could have gone to my house to stay while I was there but I preferred to stay with Shawn. We still ordered separate rooms but I spent most of my time in Shawn’s room. We hadn’t made love yet, but I knew I was falling for him more and more everyday. It was Friday night and Shawn had just switched on the TV to Friday Night Smackdown. We always watched it to see how our SD friends were doing on their show - we always swapped over to each others shows, but Shawn hadn’t made an appearance on SD in months (I had though, I did a big 8 person divas tag match). It was a usual Friday show on SD until they came to the Raw Rebound - where they showed an important bit from the Raw show every week. Of course, the segment was about Shawn’s match with Khali, me accompanying John to the ring and then Shawn confronting John. What else would it be? I sighed. I noticed as we watched the footage that Shawn was looking angry.
“It’s in the past, Shawn” I reminded him. He visibly relaxed at my words and took my hand. The programme switched back to the arena and one of the commentators said “And we have some breaking news - a camera caught Shawn and his valet May in the locker-room after Monday Night Raw” - to our horror they showed a clip of us kissing. Shawn and I looked at each other and our mouths dropped open. “They were openly kissing in Shawn’s locker-room - even with the 23 year age gap between them. There will be more about this shocking revelation on next week’s Raw” The commentator continued.
“Oh my lord” Shawn murmured. I certainly hadn’t noticed a camera anywhere near us, I thought we were completely alone. “I guess we’ll have to come clean, May” He looked sideways at me.
“I don’t know, Shawn. What if it makes us less popular?” I said, getting worried.
“Vince will ask us to do a promo on the show on Monday either confirming or denying it. I’d rather confirm it, I want everybody to know how I feel about you” Shawn tilted my head towards his. I looked into his eyes and realised he was right. So did I.
“They mentioned the age gap, I knew they would bring it up…” I said.
“Don’t worry about what everybody thinks, sweetheart. The only person’s opinion I care about is yours” Shawn answered. He kissed me softly. I wrapped my arms around him and sighed. My cellphone started to ring, suddenly. Without breaking away from Shawn I felt around behind me until I found it and put it to my ear.
“Hello?” I said, as Shawn pulled me onto his lap.
“Hello darling! We heard you’re in town!” My Mum’s voice said.
“Hey Mum! Yeah, we are. Raw has come to Miami, finally” I said. I felt Shawn place a kiss on the back of my neck and smiled.
“We heard you have a new boyfriend. Your father and I would like to meet him. Would he like to come to dinner tomorrow night?” Mum asked. I froze. I didn’t know if that was such a good idea. Mum and Dad obviously didn’t know the man in question was Shawn.
“Um, let me ask him” I said and put my hand over the mouthpiece. I shifted around so I could look at Shawn.
“Mum and Dad want to meet my new boyfriend, meaning you. They want to have dinner tomorrow. Should we go?” I asked, biting my lip.
“Don’t you want your parents to know who your boyfriend is?” Shawn asked. I noticed a twinkle in his eyes.
“Of course I do, but you know they won’t be happy with the age difference. They weren’t happy when they found out I was your valet, remember?” I answered. That had been a disastrous meeting - Mum and Dad were not pleased when they found out I was working with a 40 year old guy.
“Sweetheart, if they love you, they’ll accept us being together. Let’s go” Shawn smiled a sexy smile. I breathed out deeply and put the phone back to my ear.
“He says yes. We’ll see you tomorrow Mum” I said, trying to keep my voice steady.
“Wonderful. Anything we should know about him?” Mum answered, sounding pleased. She wouldn’t be so pleased when she found out who he was.
“Let’s wait until tomorrow when you meet him” I replied. I said bye and hung up. “I really hope this isn’t a bad idea” I said to Shawn.
“It’ll be fine” He replied. I remembered the last time he told me that, everything went wrong.
The next night, I stopped my car outside my Mum and Dad’s place (I have my own place down here and my own car, although I don’t use either of them much). I turned off the ignition and just sat there. Shawn in the passenger seat beside me, squeezed my hand reassuringly.
“You can do this, May. After the initial shock, they’ll be fine” He said.
“Are you sure?” I said. Because I certainly wasn’t.
“Trust me” Shawn leaned forward and brushed a soft kiss across my lips. When he pulled away I let out a deep breath.
“You go in first, I’ll get the wine and then join you” He added. I nodded and got out of the car. Shawn busied himself with getting the wine from the trunk and I went up the path to the door. I rung the doorbell. Mum opened the door and broke into a smile.
“May, darling!” She hugged me, then pulled back. “Where is he?” She asked.
“He’s getting the wine from the trunk, he’ll be here in a minute” I replied, trying to keep calm. Dad and my older sister Jenny appeared and both gave me a hug. Shawn came walking up the path, holding the wine bottles.
“That’s the guy you valet for. Where’s your boyfriend?” Jenny asked, looking puzzled.
“That is my boyfriend. Mum, Dad… Shawn and I are together” I said quickly. Shawn came up behind me and wrapped his free arm around my waist.
“Hello Mr and Mrs Smith, nice to see you again” He grinned. Mum and Dad were speechless. But they couldn’t be rude and say anything because Shawn was a guest in our house.
“Oh… do come in Shawn” Mum said, after a very awkward silence. Shawn and I both stepped in the house. “Shawn, you go in the living room. We need to speak to our daughter” She continued. I swallowed deeply. Shawn squeezed me tight then let go of me. He disappeared into the living room and I was faced with Mum and Dad.
“May, that man is 41 years old. Why are you with him?” Dad asked. He looked furious.
“Dad, I’m 18 years old! I’m old enough to choose my own boyfriends. Shawn is amazing and sweet and perfect for me!” I said. I had to stand up for Shawn, they hardly knew him.
“He is a lot older then you, May. There’s 23 years between you! You’re still a teenager! He is taking advantage of you and you just don’t see it!” Dad exclaimed.
“Dad! He is not taking advantage of me. I chose to be with him and I don’t care about the age difference. You don’t know him like I do!” I said, aware my voice was getting louder. I knew Shawn could hear our whole conversation from the living room. I didn’t want him to hear my parents badmouthing him.
“He’s brainwashed you, May. For God’s sake, why can’t you go out with somebody your own age?” Dad lost his temper.
“You guys wanted to meet my boyfriend and you’ve met him. Can we just have dinner and try to act civil? He’s a guest in our house, you have to treat him with respect!” I shouted. I knew this was a bad idea.
“Fine” Dad turned on his heel and walked into the kitchen. Mum sighed deeply and followed him.
I went into the living room. Shawn was walking around looking at ornaments but he stopped when I came in.
“How much of that did you hear?” I asked, feeling like I could cry. Shawn gave me a hug.
“All of it. Don’t worry about what your father thinks, babe. It’s better that he knows directly from you. I love what you said about me, though” He smiled a sweet understanding smile.
“What?” I said, burying my face in his shoulder.
“When you said I was sweet, amazing and perfect. I think the same about you” He replied, holding me tight. We stayed in an embrace until Mum called us for dinner. Nervously, I took Shawn’s hand and we went into the dining room. Thankfully Dad sat at the head of the table - I sat next to Shawn and across from Jenny. She was the only one who didn’t seem annoyed I was with Shawn. She mouthed to me ‘Great choice’ as Mum served up the meal, which was a roast. I smiled back at her, touching Shawn’s leg under the table. He grinned and touched me back. We all ate - Mum kept the subject neutral asking Shawn and I how the wrestling was going (they don’t watch it). We told them about our new storyline (the whole thing with John Cena). I noticed Dad would not stop glaring at Shawn. I was getting sick of it and apparently so was Shawn, who had kept a cool demeanour until now.
“I don’t mean to be rude, but why do you keep staring at me?” He asked, looking directly at Dad. I bit my lip.
“Why do you feel the need to be with my daughter? Can’t you find somebody of your own age?” Dad replied. Somebody your age, Dad? I thought. My Mum and Dad had kids early - Mum had Jenny when was 20. Shawn was only 4 years younger then Dad - Shawn was 41, and Dad was 45.
“Love knows no bounds, Mr Smith. You can’t help who you fall for” Shawn answered. He took my hand under the table and squeezed it firmly.
“So you admit you’ve fallen for May? Someone 20 years younger then you?” Dad said. I wished Dad would just shut up, he was embarrassing himself.
“Yes, why else would I be here meeting her parents? Mr Smith, I think you need to realise that May isn’t a little girl anymore and that she’s old enough to date who she wants” Shawn answered. I smiled, he knew exactly how to handle Dad’s annoying questions.
“How dare you talk to me like that!” Dad shouted.
“DAD! Leave him alone. If you don’t start being civil, we’re leaving” I broke in. I knew Dad wouldn’t want me to go as he and Mum only saw me once every couple of months because of my WWE commitments. Dad begrudgingly shut up and the rest of dinner managed to stay civil. We stuck around for another half an hour, then I made excuses, saying we had a promo event to go to, then dragged Shawn out of the house.
Outside in the car, Shawn turned to me. “Why did you say we had a promo event? You know we don’t” He asked.
“Oh come on Shawn, it was torture in there. They obviously hate the idea of us being together. I couldn’t stand it” I put my head in my hands. “I wish I could agree with you when you say my parent’s opinions don’t matter, but they do to me,” I added.
“May, I know you respect your parents and want them to like me, but I don’t think it’s going to happen” Shawn touched my shoulder gently. I looked at the floor through my hands. This was a disaster. Sometimes I wondered whether being with Shawn was worth the effort.
“Shawn… I sometimes wonder whether this is worth the effort” I said, continuing to stare at the floor.
“What?” Shawn asked, sounding surprised.
“The odds seem to be stacked against us. Nobody wants us to be together,” I answered.
“I want us to be together. Does that count for anything?” Shawn said. He sounded hurt. I hadn’t looked at him since we’d left the house.
“It’s just so hard, Shawn! We constantly fight and we run into hurdles at every turn” I squeezed my eyes shut.
“We’ve overcome most other hurdles together, why not this one? I think it just makes us stronger,” Shawn replied. “And as for the fights, yes they’re fiery but the make up bit is always amazing” He continued, referring to our screaming match in the hotel in Pennsylvania and then our passionate make up session.
I finally brought my head up from my hands. Shawn had his head tilted to one side, he looked absolutely adorable. At that moment I knew it was definitely worth the effort. I also knew I was falling in love with him. I wasn’t sure whether to tell him or not as I didn’t know if he felt that strongly about me as I did about him.
“Come here, babe” Shawn held out his arms to me, which I gratefully fell into. I wrapped my arms around him.
“Shawn, if I wanted to tell you something and I wasn’t sure of how you’d react, would you want to know what I wanted to tell you?” I asked.
“That’s a pretty cryptic question, sweetheart. Why? Do you have something you want to tell me?” Shawn replied, stroking my hair.
“I don’t know what you’d say” I admitted.
“If it’s something to do with us, I want to know” Shawn held me at arm’s length. That just made it harder as I could now see his eyes. He looked into my eyes. “Tell me, baby” He continued.
“Shawn… I…” I attempted to say what was on my mind, but stopped. Shawn’s piercing eyes penetrated mine. I swallowed deeply. “I, I’m falling in love with you” I finally said, softly. I continued to stare into his eyes.
“Oh, sweetheart…” Shawn whispered. He never broke eye contact with me. He didn’t say anything for the longest time. I bit my lip, he didn’t feel the same way. I was about to say something, but he placed his finger on my lips to silence me. “I tried to deny it for the longest time, I thought ‘no Shawn you can’t be in love with May, she’s only 18 and doesn’t fancy you’ - but when I kissed you and you kissed me back, I didn’t try to hold my feelings back… I’m falling in love with you, too…” Shawn said. My heart melted at his little speech.
“Shawn, you’re so perfect” I murmured, letting him pull me back into his arms again.
“No, you’re perfect” Shawn replied, kissing the top of my head. “We’re perfect for each other” He added after a moment. I let out a deep breath of relief. It was a big step for me to tell him that.
After one of the biggest moments in our relationship so far, we drove back to the hotel. Both Shawn and I were in extremely good moods, and I managed to avoid Shawn’s mood turning sour when I spotted John Cena in the lobby. I pushed Shawn ahead of me to the elevator so he wouldn’t see him. I waved to John who waved back - Shawn was pushing the elevator button and didn’t see him. I breathed a sigh of relief and followed him into the elevator. In Shawn’s room, we flopped onto the couch and switched on the TV.
“Hey babe, I’m gonna take a shower” I said, after I’d watched Shawn flip channels for a couple of minutes.
“Sure” Shawn replied, sending me a wink. I raised my eyebrows and went into the bathroom. I stripped off and got in. I was wetting my hair when there was a knock on the door.
“Shawn, I’m having a shower!” I called. I’d just told him that five minutes ago. Men, I thought, rolling my eyes. They never listen!
“I know… I thought I’d join you” Shawn opened the door. I bit my lip. If he did, it would be the first time he’d see me naked. I peered around the shower curtain.
“Are you sure?” I asked. I wondered if he could see the worry in my eyes.
“Sweetheart, trust me” Shawn answered. I ducked back behind the curtain, and turned to face the stream of water. I was nervous. I jumped when I felt Shawn touch me from behind. He wrapped his arms around my waist, and I felt his body press up against mine. I was shaking slightly, and tried to push it away. This was Shawn I was with, he wouldn’t hurt me. Shawn gently moved my hair from my shoulders and started to kiss my neck. “Relax, baby…” He murmured.
“I’m trying” I answered. I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on Shawn kissing my neck. I bit down on my lip again as pleasurable feelings rushed through me. Soon, I moaned out loud.
“See, there we go” Shawn whispered. “Let me see you,” He continued. He attempted to turn me around, but I grabbed his arms.
“Stop…” I said. Tears welled up in my eyes, what was I doing?
“Babe, it’s ok. It’s me, you can trust me. I just want to see how beautiful you are,” Shawn said. I didn’t let go of his arms, but he easily overpowered me and pulled them from my grip. I didn’t answer, but I did let him slowly turn me around. Shawn looked me up and down then pulled me into a hug. “You’re absolutely beautiful, darling,” He whispered. He tilted my head towards his and kissed me softly. I couldn’t get over the fact that I’d just let Shawn see me naked. His body felt so good pressed up against mine, though. The kiss got deeper and deeper until Shawn had backed me up against the shower wall. He pinned me there, and slid one hand down my body, while his other tangled in my wet hair. I felt him slide his hand between my legs, forcing my thighs apart. A rush of panic shot through me. Then I thought ‘May, it’s Shawn. He won’t hurt you.’ Shawn pulled away from our kiss, and I wondered why, until I felt his fingers enter me. I gasped out loud, and my hips automatically moved up to meet his fingers. Shawn smiled.
“I wasn’t expecting you to move your hips” He whispered, as he started to slide his fingers in and out of me.
“Me neither” I admitted. It felt so amazing, I didn’t want to lose control straight away because then he might stop. Shawn went back to kissing my neck while he continued working his magic.
“Oh, Shawn…” I breathed out, as pleasure soared through me.
“Does it feel good, baby?” He asked, his eyes penetrating mine.
“You know it does” I answered.
“Good… I think it’s time…” Shawn gave me a smile that made my knees go weak - if he hadn’t been holding me up I would have fallen. I knew he was right, I didn’t want to stop now.
“I want you to make love to me,” I said, softly. I knew I wanted Shawn to be my first, I wanted to lose my virginity to him.
“You don’t know how long I’ve been waiting for this,” Shawn replied. His voice was husky and full of passion. He positioned me so it wouldn’t be uncomfortable - as he was almost a foot taller then I was. Somehow it wasn’t a disadvantage. Wrapping his arms around my body, he moved me in between his legs.
“Are you ready, babe? There’s no going back after this” Shawn said. I nodded.
“I want you” I whispered. Shawn smiled again, and I felt him enter me. Since it was my first time, it started to hurt. I cried out in pain, it hurt a lot more then I was expecting it to. I felt a couple of tears escape my eyes and roll down my cheeks.
“Shhh, sweetheart… it’s ok, it’ll only hurt for a minute” Shawn said. He reached up and tenderly wiped the tears from my cheeks. I bit down on my lip again, hard. It hurt so damned much. More tears escaped my eyes. Shawn kept gently wiping them away. He was being so perfect and understanding. I wasn’t crying because of him, but because it hurt.
But slowly and surely, the pain started to ebb away, being replaced by an absolutely pleasurable sensation. After a minute or so, I let out a little moan.
“There we go, baby… concentrate on the good feelings” Shawn murmured. He started to move in and out of me, slowly moving his hips back and forth. As he did this, he resumed kissing my neck. I slid my arms around him and threw my head back. It now felt amazing. I started to moan Shawn’s name. Somehow I knew hearing me say his name like that made him hot. Shawn raised his head up and kissed me hard on the lips. Our kiss was passionate and extremely hot. I knew Shawn was nearing orgasm and so was I. We continued kissing deeply until Shawn went tense in my arms. I felt a warmth inside me and knew he’d orgasmed.
“May… oh sweetheart…” He murmured, stroking my hair back from my face. Just then I had my orgasm. It was mind-blowing and if Shawn hadn’t been holding me, I would have collapsed.
“Oh, Shawn… oh my god” I moaned out. I leant against his strong form, trying to catch my breath.
“How was that for a first time?” Shawn whispered, picking me up in his arms. He turned the shower off and got out. I didn’t answer, just rested my head on his shoulder. Shawn wrapped us both in large fluffy towels and then carried me out to the main room. He put me in the bed and then joined me.
“Mmm… I think you should get rid of your towel” I said, tugging on the towel wrapped around his waist.
“Only if you get rid of yours” Shawn laughed. I let him pull mine off and then managed to get his off. He enveloped my naked body in his arms and gave me a soft, sweet kiss. I was all warm and very happy, all cuddled up with him - I had never felt so comfortable or safe in my entire life. I drifted off to sleep.