Scope, context, decision
I don’t know where it comes from sometimes, but I don’t believe that that’s always most important. I will not say that the ends justify the means or the opposite-that somehow the way in which something was done can justify the outcome. I think they are strange bedfellows. They are circumstantial relationships fostered by our normal sense of order. We make time. We measure events in it. We are linear timelines with non-linear editing abilities. At first we exist. Then we are conscious that we exist. Then we consciously make our existence or deny it.
We are a mix of controlled and uncontrolled events and we battle with the steering wheel.
We don’t always have power over the ends or even seen them. I think we can only grapple with understanding and take action to further understanding. We can make ourselves powerful enough to change and influence. The justification of power is a separate issue. This is personal and has agendas. This requires wisdom, responsibility, humility, and pain, but none to be equally distributed. We are who we are by how we arrange them.
I was thinking about how I might live if I were about to die. How fervently would I work on music or helping poor or whatever it was I decided to make into a last grip onto life. Then I got to thinking about what I’d do if I were to live. I might do much less. I’m thinking I will do more instead. Maybe I won’t do a whole lot more, but I will do more. I look at the scope of what has been my life, and then at the context in which I’ve become who I am in the now, and I make the decision to be more than before. Not in some grand way or in some purely selfless way, but I will make myself more aware of the way I edit my experiences, and will allow my consciousness to derive more out of the things that have happened to me over which I had no control. I will make myself more aware of the areas in which I really did have control after all, but abandoned to escape pain, humility, responsibility, and wisdom.
I will have to devise some plans to safeguard me from my former decisions, but I’m confident that my new self can outsmart my previous one.
I think I will read some more philosophy before I venture further into the realm of probable unrefined rediscovery. Maybe I will let someone else teach me something.
We are a mix of controlled and uncontrolled events and we battle with the steering wheel.
We don’t always have power over the ends or even seen them. I think we can only grapple with understanding and take action to further understanding. We can make ourselves powerful enough to change and influence. The justification of power is a separate issue. This is personal and has agendas. This requires wisdom, responsibility, humility, and pain, but none to be equally distributed. We are who we are by how we arrange them.
I was thinking about how I might live if I were about to die. How fervently would I work on music or helping poor or whatever it was I decided to make into a last grip onto life. Then I got to thinking about what I’d do if I were to live. I might do much less. I’m thinking I will do more instead. Maybe I won’t do a whole lot more, but I will do more. I look at the scope of what has been my life, and then at the context in which I’ve become who I am in the now, and I make the decision to be more than before. Not in some grand way or in some purely selfless way, but I will make myself more aware of the way I edit my experiences, and will allow my consciousness to derive more out of the things that have happened to me over which I had no control. I will make myself more aware of the areas in which I really did have control after all, but abandoned to escape pain, humility, responsibility, and wisdom.
I will have to devise some plans to safeguard me from my former decisions, but I’m confident that my new self can outsmart my previous one.
I think I will read some more philosophy before I venture further into the realm of probable unrefined rediscovery. Maybe I will let someone else teach me something.