In Between
I feel so between right now. I'm not a freshman or a 4th class, but I can't become a sophomore 3rd class until after commissioning (which is either Friday or Saturday, I should prob find that out...).
At first when I realized I was staying at Duke an extra week to do Navy and regular graduations, I was really excited. The idea of going home just felt so wrong and boring. But after the negative funness that was my crappy trip to Myrtle Beach and the strange feeling of living out of my car that I am currently experiencing, I just want to be one place or the other. Either real Duke or real home. I can't even use my own computer because somehow Bell Tower's wireless is different than all the other wirelesses in the whole campus and I can't get online. SO sitting all alone in the computer lab of Carr at 9:30 is probably not helping my mood any.
At the same time, getting to hang out/get to know Deepika and Angela (other AOPi pledges) is awesome and I am possibly sleeping on their floor tonight. But it just doesn't feel real. I hate when I start thinking - it's always a mistake.
Why is Alexis in Peru? Why have I been semi-stalking one of my guy friends/crushes for the past few weeks? Why am I constantly embarassed by myself? Why am I possibly one of the most boring people I know (except Chi O Megan - she is boringer)? Why is Sufjan Stevens so amazing? And why, despite all my whining, am I still pretty damn content with life?
Oh yeah, because I am an extremely lucky person. Perspective is a good thing - remember that, children.
At first when I realized I was staying at Duke an extra week to do Navy and regular graduations, I was really excited. The idea of going home just felt so wrong and boring. But after the negative funness that was my crappy trip to Myrtle Beach and the strange feeling of living out of my car that I am currently experiencing, I just want to be one place or the other. Either real Duke or real home. I can't even use my own computer because somehow Bell Tower's wireless is different than all the other wirelesses in the whole campus and I can't get online. SO sitting all alone in the computer lab of Carr at 9:30 is probably not helping my mood any.
At the same time, getting to hang out/get to know Deepika and Angela (other AOPi pledges) is awesome and I am possibly sleeping on their floor tonight. But it just doesn't feel real. I hate when I start thinking - it's always a mistake.
Why is Alexis in Peru? Why have I been semi-stalking one of my guy friends/crushes for the past few weeks? Why am I constantly embarassed by myself? Why am I possibly one of the most boring people I know (except Chi O Megan - she is boringer)? Why is Sufjan Stevens so amazing? And why, despite all my whining, am I still pretty damn content with life?
Oh yeah, because I am an extremely lucky person. Perspective is a good thing - remember that, children.