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I can't sleep....thinking to much of this ashton situation. lately we've been on good terms, last night he apologized for lying and said that he does remember the good times we had. and i went over and we cuddled and talked a lot about our lives. i hate that he's happier without me, i miss us. i still think he's kinda the one for me cause to be honest, i don't know any other girl that would sit there and listen to the things he says....and stick around. and i dont know anyone who sets me on the right path like he does. we keep eachother in focus i suppose. but its like everytime we hang out, he doesnt talk to me days after then when i get in touch with him he's a jerk. wtf? i'm tired of these games but i feel like i'm making progress?! i dunno....i just want him to realize that i'm here for him, and i'm not the person he thinks i am, and that i will always love him. he's messing up a great thing. whatever it's keeping me from sleeping. this sucks. i just miss us. and i know we could be better than before, the chemistry is there - so wtf