Bittersweet Symphony.
I'm feeling sort of crappy right now. Well, I have been for a few days, but I have actually found enough time to talk about it.
First of all, I'm stressed. I've got so many things to do and I just want to be graduated and gone from this God-Forsaken college. I'm tired of schoolwork, teachers, and all that rot.
But, it's a bittersweet feeling, because I will have to leave some really good friends. Stephie, who has become pretty much my best friend and is so very, very fun. Josh, who is fun to be around and has interesting ideas that make for interesting conversation. Tasha, who is the person that any friends could talk to when they have anything wrong with them and who is probably one of the nicest people I know...
But I am starting to feel that I'm annoying them. I wonder what it is about me that people like at first, but eventually they seem to avoid me. I worry all the time, and I'm not even sure that I have anything to worry about. It just seems that people are starting to avoid me and not want to talk to me anymore. And I try to be the person that is there for my friends whenever they need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to, but I feel as if people don't think that they can trust me or they don't want to talk to me about anything personal. But it also might be the lack of sleep and stress talking. I don't know.
But anyway, I've been typing on this for a while and now I'm just going to post it. I'm thinking about going to bed soon...but I'm not sure. We'll see I guess.
*hugs all*
First of all, I'm stressed. I've got so many things to do and I just want to be graduated and gone from this God-Forsaken college. I'm tired of schoolwork, teachers, and all that rot.
But, it's a bittersweet feeling, because I will have to leave some really good friends. Stephie, who has become pretty much my best friend and is so very, very fun. Josh, who is fun to be around and has interesting ideas that make for interesting conversation. Tasha, who is the person that any friends could talk to when they have anything wrong with them and who is probably one of the nicest people I know...
But I am starting to feel that I'm annoying them. I wonder what it is about me that people like at first, but eventually they seem to avoid me. I worry all the time, and I'm not even sure that I have anything to worry about. It just seems that people are starting to avoid me and not want to talk to me anymore. And I try to be the person that is there for my friends whenever they need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to, but I feel as if people don't think that they can trust me or they don't want to talk to me about anything personal. But it also might be the lack of sleep and stress talking. I don't know.
But anyway, I've been typing on this for a while and now I'm just going to post it. I'm thinking about going to bed soon...but I'm not sure. We'll see I guess.
*hugs all*