Life as of now...
I thought it was about time for another post. The last two weeks have been pretty crazy. They got the test results back on Michael. Unfortuately, instead of the 'good' kind of cancer, that can be treated in 3 months and taken out, he has a form of non-Hodgken's Lympoma. This is the kind that can head straight for the brain. So now, he has a port in his stomach and in his head, for the chemo and he starts it Wednesday (Tomorrow). He'll probably be in there for a while, because they said that he will probably get sick after his first treatment, cause it will be a pretty strong dose of chemo...plus he's going to lose all his hair, which he isnt too happy about. *sigh* So, I'm just praying everyday that he'll be alright and that he'll get better.
In other news, I'm still procrastinating terribly. I didn't realize that in my last semester it would be THAT difficult for me to get motivated to do ANYTHING. I'm behind in reading for my classes, which is why I'm not going to work this Saturday...so that I can make sure that I can get the reading done, so that when I go back to class on Monday, I won't be behind anymore. It helps that I don't have to worry about work for British Literature tomorrow, because my class was cancelled for a take home test...and then Thursday, my Education class was cancelled too. But still...I need to just sit down tomorrow and work. I may end up having to turn off the internet or something, so that I won't be tempted to check all of my emails and such instead of doing work. *sigh*
Anyway, the only other thing that I've got on my mind is that I think it's nearing the time for depression. I swear, I was playing a game tonight, which normally would have made me happy, but I just couldn't get into it. Maybe I'm starting to worry and I've had a lot of stuff shoved on my plate lately, it might also be that everytime I look in the mirror, I can't help but see how hideous I really look. Even this is made worse by the feelings of worthlessness and the feelings that I'm annoying people and that I'm really being a bother to them all. It sucks when you feel like when you want to spend time/talk/hang out with someone that you are really just getting on your nerves. I'm not exactly sure what prompted this whole line of thought, but all I know is that I really need something to bring a little joy to my life before I go insane. *sigh*
In other news, I'm still procrastinating terribly. I didn't realize that in my last semester it would be THAT difficult for me to get motivated to do ANYTHING. I'm behind in reading for my classes, which is why I'm not going to work this Saturday...so that I can make sure that I can get the reading done, so that when I go back to class on Monday, I won't be behind anymore. It helps that I don't have to worry about work for British Literature tomorrow, because my class was cancelled for a take home test...and then Thursday, my Education class was cancelled too. But still...I need to just sit down tomorrow and work. I may end up having to turn off the internet or something, so that I won't be tempted to check all of my emails and such instead of doing work. *sigh*
Anyway, the only other thing that I've got on my mind is that I think it's nearing the time for depression. I swear, I was playing a game tonight, which normally would have made me happy, but I just couldn't get into it. Maybe I'm starting to worry and I've had a lot of stuff shoved on my plate lately, it might also be that everytime I look in the mirror, I can't help but see how hideous I really look. Even this is made worse by the feelings of worthlessness and the feelings that I'm annoying people and that I'm really being a bother to them all. It sucks when you feel like when you want to spend time/talk/hang out with someone that you are really just getting on your nerves. I'm not exactly sure what prompted this whole line of thought, but all I know is that I really need something to bring a little joy to my life before I go insane. *sigh*