I broke up with Dan
Long story...
Well... I guess I should start on Sunday... we went to go see National Treasure, it was sorta awkward, we didn't really talk or anything, and he had to go straight afterwards for something. Nothing special, we exchanged about 20 words in total, not good.
Monday was just horrible! He was avoiding me the whole day, and whispering to Charlie about something, and he mentioned my name. I called him when I got home, and he told me, that maybe we should just be friends, and I was sitting there going "WTF????", he said some shit about stress, and stuff. I started crying on the phone, I hanged up, after I gained back some of my composure, I said,
"Okay..." and he said,
"I'm sorry... it just isn't working... something didn't click... It was nice the first two weeks, but then something happened... we tried to get to know each other too quickly"
Me just sitting there in shock, trying to absorb it said, "Something didn't click", but I don't know if I meant it or not, our relationship wasn't perfect, but I was happy, and I thought he was.
Then I called Eden, and I burst out crying, I went to watch TROY (it's already out in some countries, and my DVD player is multi region) to try to make myself feel better, I don't think it hit me what actually happened at that point. He was being all nice, and being like "Dan's getting crazy" and stuff... but he still likes me, I asked him, and he said yes.
I called Nina, and she started saying how Dan was a jackass and stuff... all the regular "trying to make you feel better".
Dan called later, and told me that he felt like shit, and maybe he shouldn't have done that... So we decided we would take a little break, but not actually break up. But when I asked him if he still liked me, he said...
"I'm confused about everything", but he supposedly told Eden that he didn't.
Then the next day, he was whispering to Marcus and Charlie again... they then told me he was calling a "Vanessa" at lunch today, she knows him from Hebrew School, and that he was going to meet me after. Supposedly Marcus and Charlie weren't suppose to tell me about Vanessa, but they did, but at their own umm. "physical" risk.
So... at lunch, after *I think* he called Vanessa, I asked him who was Vanessa... he goes off to "confront" Marcus and Charlie.
I thought he was going to break up with me, and I think he was, but I probably reacted too quickly, but I did dump him... later in the day, while he was passing me in the hall he was like, "I'm really sorry..."
Went home, cried a bit *not too much*, thought about it too much.
Today he asked Yuan, "If I still liked him, and/or if I hated him..."
I called him this afternoon, and he wasn't home, so I asked his brother to tell him I called.
He called me later, in a really pissed off tone, and said,
D:"Why'd you call me?"
Me: Yuan said you wanted to know if I still liked you or not...
D: Why did we ever hate Yuan? *subject changing... I majorly disliked her for a while, because she was flirting with Dan when he was with me, and she was really annoying, and she plagerised for her project*
Me: I dunno... I did make up with her though... we're friends
D: You know we were really mean to her...
Me: I regret it. Who is Vanessa?
D: You don't need to know... So... why did you call me?
Me: Look... I don't hate you, and I still like you!!! I feel like it's weird for me to do this! But I still do and I CAN'T DENY IT!
D: It was pretty obvious, but you made the call yesterday... it over, we're just friends
Me: I can't say I don't regret it. I can't say I won't miss "us"...
D: I can't say I will.
Me: *choke up in tears and whisper*What happened?
D: I gotta go... I got to go do my newspaper route..
I called Eden... he said some more stuff about Dan changing, then his Grandma yelled at me for calling him too much, so I didn't bother going through a stupid lecture, and I hanged up.
I called Nina *and Manisha was there* she said that the people at her school who knew him last year said he was a jackass, and that I shouldn't have gone out with him. But then she said the normal best friend stuff like "Don't cry, he's not worth it", "Dan's a jerkass", "He's going to regret it".
What's worse, is I still don't know if I hate him or not... I still like him I think, but I dunno... it bothers me that he can hurt me like this, and I still don't hate him...
And it hurts more that he's been kinda avoiding me since last week, and that when he does talk to me around other people, he tries to act cool. It's so annoying! Arghh... and he keeps saying that this class pisses him off because we care too much about our marks. So what if we do? I care about what university I can get into!
He's changed a lot, in the 3 months I've known him for. At first he was the hyper, forgetful, unorganized, sorta cute, sweet, sometimes funny guy that was loyal to his friends, and accepting to his new friends. Moody, but never extremely pissed at people for stupid reasons.
Now he's the kid who never does homework, trying to act cool, still unorganized and forgetful, but purposefully so. He's sweet and cute sometimes when he's talking to me alone, but never when he's with people he's trying to impress. He goes around dissing people as a friendly joke, but it's getting annoying, and he gets pissed at people for no reason at all at times.
This wasn't the guy I met three months ago, I wish that boy stayed. This new guy isn't as good. I still like him though, but I preferred the old one.
I'm trying to let things sink in... but they aren't. I don't know if I made a mistake breaking up with him, but he was going to dump me anyways.. probably...
Oh.. and I disappeared for a week or so because Rogers thought we moved November 20th, instead of December 20th, and cut off my internet and TV for a week.
Well... I guess I should start on Sunday... we went to go see National Treasure, it was sorta awkward, we didn't really talk or anything, and he had to go straight afterwards for something. Nothing special, we exchanged about 20 words in total, not good.
Monday was just horrible! He was avoiding me the whole day, and whispering to Charlie about something, and he mentioned my name. I called him when I got home, and he told me, that maybe we should just be friends, and I was sitting there going "WTF????", he said some shit about stress, and stuff. I started crying on the phone, I hanged up, after I gained back some of my composure, I said,
"Okay..." and he said,
"I'm sorry... it just isn't working... something didn't click... It was nice the first two weeks, but then something happened... we tried to get to know each other too quickly"
Me just sitting there in shock, trying to absorb it said, "Something didn't click", but I don't know if I meant it or not, our relationship wasn't perfect, but I was happy, and I thought he was.
Then I called Eden, and I burst out crying, I went to watch TROY (it's already out in some countries, and my DVD player is multi region) to try to make myself feel better, I don't think it hit me what actually happened at that point. He was being all nice, and being like "Dan's getting crazy" and stuff... but he still likes me, I asked him, and he said yes.
I called Nina, and she started saying how Dan was a jackass and stuff... all the regular "trying to make you feel better".
Dan called later, and told me that he felt like shit, and maybe he shouldn't have done that... So we decided we would take a little break, but not actually break up. But when I asked him if he still liked me, he said...
"I'm confused about everything", but he supposedly told Eden that he didn't.
Then the next day, he was whispering to Marcus and Charlie again... they then told me he was calling a "Vanessa" at lunch today, she knows him from Hebrew School, and that he was going to meet me after. Supposedly Marcus and Charlie weren't suppose to tell me about Vanessa, but they did, but at their own umm. "physical" risk.
So... at lunch, after *I think* he called Vanessa, I asked him who was Vanessa... he goes off to "confront" Marcus and Charlie.
I thought he was going to break up with me, and I think he was, but I probably reacted too quickly, but I did dump him... later in the day, while he was passing me in the hall he was like, "I'm really sorry..."
Went home, cried a bit *not too much*, thought about it too much.
Today he asked Yuan, "If I still liked him, and/or if I hated him..."
I called him this afternoon, and he wasn't home, so I asked his brother to tell him I called.
He called me later, in a really pissed off tone, and said,
D:"Why'd you call me?"
Me: Yuan said you wanted to know if I still liked you or not...
D: Why did we ever hate Yuan? *subject changing... I majorly disliked her for a while, because she was flirting with Dan when he was with me, and she was really annoying, and she plagerised for her project*
Me: I dunno... I did make up with her though... we're friends
D: You know we were really mean to her...
Me: I regret it. Who is Vanessa?
D: You don't need to know... So... why did you call me?
Me: Look... I don't hate you, and I still like you!!! I feel like it's weird for me to do this! But I still do and I CAN'T DENY IT!
D: It was pretty obvious, but you made the call yesterday... it over, we're just friends
Me: I can't say I don't regret it. I can't say I won't miss "us"...
D: I can't say I will.
Me: *choke up in tears and whisper*What happened?
D: I gotta go... I got to go do my newspaper route..
I called Eden... he said some more stuff about Dan changing, then his Grandma yelled at me for calling him too much, so I didn't bother going through a stupid lecture, and I hanged up.
I called Nina *and Manisha was there* she said that the people at her school who knew him last year said he was a jackass, and that I shouldn't have gone out with him. But then she said the normal best friend stuff like "Don't cry, he's not worth it", "Dan's a jerkass", "He's going to regret it".
What's worse, is I still don't know if I hate him or not... I still like him I think, but I dunno... it bothers me that he can hurt me like this, and I still don't hate him...
And it hurts more that he's been kinda avoiding me since last week, and that when he does talk to me around other people, he tries to act cool. It's so annoying! Arghh... and he keeps saying that this class pisses him off because we care too much about our marks. So what if we do? I care about what university I can get into!
He's changed a lot, in the 3 months I've known him for. At first he was the hyper, forgetful, unorganized, sorta cute, sweet, sometimes funny guy that was loyal to his friends, and accepting to his new friends. Moody, but never extremely pissed at people for stupid reasons.
Now he's the kid who never does homework, trying to act cool, still unorganized and forgetful, but purposefully so. He's sweet and cute sometimes when he's talking to me alone, but never when he's with people he's trying to impress. He goes around dissing people as a friendly joke, but it's getting annoying, and he gets pissed at people for no reason at all at times.
This wasn't the guy I met three months ago, I wish that boy stayed. This new guy isn't as good. I still like him though, but I preferred the old one.
I'm trying to let things sink in... but they aren't. I don't know if I made a mistake breaking up with him, but he was going to dump me anyways.. probably...
Oh.. and I disappeared for a week or so because Rogers thought we moved November 20th, instead of December 20th, and cut off my internet and TV for a week.