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so my mother brought up patrick agian
becuase she was talking about the HS curriculm night and in choir ms. seaton was talking about how fun it was and that we always have so much fun and we meet new friends, and some of us even meet boyfriends. aka moi.
and my mum was said to me ," and then i realised you're going to see him agian at the festival..and its a good time to make up ..." so i told her to shut up but she won't stop fucking talking about it andi realy just want to slap her and might end up doing something if she doesn't shut the fuck up about it.
im having enough troubles as it is...PLUS ive been having dreams about him, only 3 but it still creeps me out
and im afriad that i'll run into him at hte mall because even though he lives in seattle he ventures over to bellevue quite often and he hangs out with jessica m. because they went to the same summer programme.
my god
AND I WANT DANIEL TO ASK ME TO HOMECOMING
i was pissed off at this one girl at school, i don't want ot say who because when i work with her she is just so unorganzied and the things we are working on i like to be organized about. and just every time i see her i get stressed and pissed off
and everday during lunch this week i haven't been sitting in the lounge i've been having meetings or something like that
everyone seems to be happy and social and i feel soo antisocial. that everyone is having a fabulous time and i'm not, like they're saying "oh look theres that weird girl lindsey" or what they're really saying about me behidn my back.
(oh god this is turning into a rant)
like when im with other friends they'll say "oh morgan lee is so cute i love her..." or "tegan is just amazing, who doesn't love her"
i want to know what other people say about me
because im scared that they're saying bad things
and acutally i think im getting pretty anxious and stressed out about work, school, choir everday at 740 am, SATs soon that i haven't started studying for (agian), and College Apps
and i think my hands are shaking now but whatever
im going to go now and do nothing
ilovelj
becuase she was talking about the HS curriculm night and in choir ms. seaton was talking about how fun it was and that we always have so much fun and we meet new friends, and some of us even meet boyfriends. aka moi.
and my mum was said to me ," and then i realised you're going to see him agian at the festival..and its a good time to make up ..." so i told her to shut up but she won't stop fucking talking about it andi realy just want to slap her and might end up doing something if she doesn't shut the fuck up about it.
im having enough troubles as it is...PLUS ive been having dreams about him, only 3 but it still creeps me out
and im afriad that i'll run into him at hte mall because even though he lives in seattle he ventures over to bellevue quite often and he hangs out with jessica m. because they went to the same summer programme.
my god
AND I WANT DANIEL TO ASK ME TO HOMECOMING
i was pissed off at this one girl at school, i don't want ot say who because when i work with her she is just so unorganzied and the things we are working on i like to be organized about. and just every time i see her i get stressed and pissed off
and everday during lunch this week i haven't been sitting in the lounge i've been having meetings or something like that
everyone seems to be happy and social and i feel soo antisocial. that everyone is having a fabulous time and i'm not, like they're saying "oh look theres that weird girl lindsey" or what they're really saying about me behidn my back.
(oh god this is turning into a rant)
like when im with other friends they'll say "oh morgan lee is so cute i love her..." or "tegan is just amazing, who doesn't love her"
i want to know what other people say about me
because im scared that they're saying bad things
and acutally i think im getting pretty anxious and stressed out about work, school, choir everday at 740 am, SATs soon that i haven't started studying for (agian), and College Apps
and i think my hands are shaking now but whatever
im going to go now and do nothing
ilovelj