i'm throwing in my hat and stepping away.
if you expect me to constantly compete for your affection... or if you're testing me this time around... i'm done. i can't emotionally take this anymore. i'm throwing in the hat. you won't notice or even read this anyway... so i guess i can say whatever i want.
what am i to you? just this person you can run to when things get shitty? when you feel trapped?
the one who has always taken care of you with no qualms. i'm always here... in your background.. giving you loves. but you don't notice. you don't see it or you don't care. you're too busy caught up in missing someone else.
you didn't HAVE to give her the ring for the right to stay there... you did it cause you wanted to too.
...
something i'm just never going to see.
you'd do anything hands down for her.. you say out of fear. ... but i have to fight to get you to move off the couch.
i deal with knowing that i might not be your "one" but i take care of you the same. i try to get you whatever you want.. whenever you want. i support you even when it does have to do with her.
and i'm still not good enough.
i dropped my life this time.
you came to me crying in wal mart saying you had been played. saying that you missed me and didn't know why you were so stupid to let someone like me go.
crying.
i felt like it was actually time.
that you actually had it all figured out.
which is the line everytime "i think i've figured it out"
but it wasn't there this time.
you wanted to work for the relationship and let it grow, you said.
and you did.
it was amazing. it started amazing and then we moved here.
to Omaha.
T_T
why i even let you is beyond me.
its cause i let you do what you want.
i don't tie you down or tell you what to do.
and thats why i get burned everytime.
why do you make the promises?
this fucking promise of forever.
i want to not love you so that it doesn't hurt.
i want to not love you so that when you come back in a month asking for me... i can actually say no.
she dropped you like a bad habit. and you can't seem to let go.
i know you wanted to and now your brain makes you think that you dont' want to.
you think about this too much.
you told me you wanted a future with me in it.
yeah. okay. i'm really believing this now.
i don't have the energy to really do this again. i don't have the energy to let you go.. or to fight for what i have.. i just have to hope and pray that you love me and i have to fight to keep you again and again. its just how my life is.
cause you don't get over things.
you don't leave people alone.
i could buy you a new life and you'd take that new life with you and walk out of my house with it.
you had me find a place for you to live. you had me figure ot the groceries.. and get a job for you. i had a job first. two at that. i grew up for you and thats still not quite enough.
one day at a time you said. in one direction or the other. but you're currently taking one day at a time in both directions.
you're comitment fobic. ... and you know... if you're with her you'll have another responsibility. ... a kid. so next time you dump her for me.. think about that one too.
you do this thing everytime you get played by her. you think you miss her. and then your brain actually does for a while and you're blind to all the shit she pulls. you go back and sit and be there and low nad behold she's a bitch and you can't stand her. and low and behold i have to listen to you about it and how much you miss me and how you were blind to all of it. this time theres another catch... she's pregnant. you know what that means? your little brain thinks that there needs to be a father in the picture.. OR she said she wishes there was a father and your brain tells you that it should be you. you feel bad for her because of mike and because of her pregnancy. and thus you're brain is reacting and wanting to take care of her, because you feel you owe her something for the past three years.
she has you around her little finger. and i think always will.
one day at a time right?
one day me.. the next her.
let me know when you've "finally figured it out" this time.. you know i'll be waiting.
You dont know me but I know who you are
Mind if I sit down
Do I look familiar if I dont well I should
Im sure youve seen me around
I know youve probably heard my name
Though weve not been introduced
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
If youve got a minute Ill buy you a drink
Ive got something to say
It might sound crazy but last night in his sleep
I heard him call out your name
This aint the first time hes done it before
And its hard to face the truth
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
I know love is a fragile thing
And Im trying hard to make it last
But it aint easy holding on to my dream
When hes holding on to the past
Just one more thing before I go
Im not here to put you down
You dont love him and thats a fact
Girl Ive seen you around
But you hold his heart in the palm of your hand
And its breaking mine in two
cause Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
what am i to you? just this person you can run to when things get shitty? when you feel trapped?
the one who has always taken care of you with no qualms. i'm always here... in your background.. giving you loves. but you don't notice. you don't see it or you don't care. you're too busy caught up in missing someone else.
you didn't HAVE to give her the ring for the right to stay there... you did it cause you wanted to too.
...
something i'm just never going to see.
you'd do anything hands down for her.. you say out of fear. ... but i have to fight to get you to move off the couch.
i deal with knowing that i might not be your "one" but i take care of you the same. i try to get you whatever you want.. whenever you want. i support you even when it does have to do with her.
and i'm still not good enough.
i dropped my life this time.
you came to me crying in wal mart saying you had been played. saying that you missed me and didn't know why you were so stupid to let someone like me go.
crying.
i felt like it was actually time.
that you actually had it all figured out.
which is the line everytime "i think i've figured it out"
but it wasn't there this time.
you wanted to work for the relationship and let it grow, you said.
and you did.
it was amazing. it started amazing and then we moved here.
to Omaha.
T_T
why i even let you is beyond me.
its cause i let you do what you want.
i don't tie you down or tell you what to do.
and thats why i get burned everytime.
why do you make the promises?
this fucking promise of forever.
i want to not love you so that it doesn't hurt.
i want to not love you so that when you come back in a month asking for me... i can actually say no.
she dropped you like a bad habit. and you can't seem to let go.
i know you wanted to and now your brain makes you think that you dont' want to.
you think about this too much.
you told me you wanted a future with me in it.
yeah. okay. i'm really believing this now.
i don't have the energy to really do this again. i don't have the energy to let you go.. or to fight for what i have.. i just have to hope and pray that you love me and i have to fight to keep you again and again. its just how my life is.
cause you don't get over things.
you don't leave people alone.
i could buy you a new life and you'd take that new life with you and walk out of my house with it.
you had me find a place for you to live. you had me figure ot the groceries.. and get a job for you. i had a job first. two at that. i grew up for you and thats still not quite enough.
one day at a time you said. in one direction or the other. but you're currently taking one day at a time in both directions.
you're comitment fobic. ... and you know... if you're with her you'll have another responsibility. ... a kid. so next time you dump her for me.. think about that one too.
you do this thing everytime you get played by her. you think you miss her. and then your brain actually does for a while and you're blind to all the shit she pulls. you go back and sit and be there and low nad behold she's a bitch and you can't stand her. and low and behold i have to listen to you about it and how much you miss me and how you were blind to all of it. this time theres another catch... she's pregnant. you know what that means? your little brain thinks that there needs to be a father in the picture.. OR she said she wishes there was a father and your brain tells you that it should be you. you feel bad for her because of mike and because of her pregnancy. and thus you're brain is reacting and wanting to take care of her, because you feel you owe her something for the past three years.
she has you around her little finger. and i think always will.
one day at a time right?
one day me.. the next her.
let me know when you've "finally figured it out" this time.. you know i'll be waiting.
You dont know me but I know who you are
Mind if I sit down
Do I look familiar if I dont well I should
Im sure youve seen me around
I know youve probably heard my name
Though weve not been introduced
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
If youve got a minute Ill buy you a drink
Ive got something to say
It might sound crazy but last night in his sleep
I heard him call out your name
This aint the first time hes done it before
And its hard to face the truth
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
I know love is a fragile thing
And Im trying hard to make it last
But it aint easy holding on to my dream
When hes holding on to the past
Just one more thing before I go
Im not here to put you down
You dont love him and thats a fact
Girl Ive seen you around
But you hold his heart in the palm of your hand
And its breaking mine in two
cause Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you