Aug 15, 2004 17:39
i hav to go to work in 20 minutes, i dont really know why i'm posting...
i feel really shitty
but actually not that shitty, its just that im afraid to go back to school because i dont want things to be exactly the same
at the same time i had a lot of fun last year, and i know i will this year. but i hate like getting dressed to go to school. its the stupidest thing ever
and i keep seeing cole and his posse in the village and its weirding me out and just reminding me about how some parts of school just suck (i kno he's not reading this so no apologies). not that their mean... just...
this is my third night in a row working. im so tired, and last night was the busiest night ive ever worked, cept i made 17 bucks in tips. and everyone is going on and on on lj about how their friends stabbed them in the back... and im wondering if ur all talking about the same person. and if it is, maybe u shouldnt take it so personally.
i had the strangest dream last night where i was crying in an ugly purple wedding dress and the guy i was about to marry kept telling me "its okay, u dont have to love me as much as i love you"... i practically woke up crying. but i did love him
and last night i was watching american history X and i was practically hysterical. it's amazing how we can go our whole lives believing in something so strongly that u would sacrifice ur life, that u would sacrifice other's lives and then find out it meant nothing. the world is so hypocritical and nothing u've evr done has made ur life better