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i sit here and look outside and realize how wonderful and beautiful life is. I only wish everyones life could look this way. Worry and strife are the only things that I had found this week. I feel like a fish getting attacked by a vicious parasite. I dont know what to do anymore. I only want one thing. to be happy again. I have only ben here for 2 days and already everything is the way it was last semester. I jus dont understand sum ppl. Why cant everyone jus live and let live....I dont want anything I jus want to be happy again. I cant think of anyone who could understand. I want to leave and run away. Why are ppl so childish and dead set on messing up everyones life. Why ....I dunno I jus know one thing. this is my year, and I dont want it to be anything but class and books but it seems as though I cant get away from the horror of one very unbalanced little girl. this cant go on I dont want to be the old amanda again I want to stay the way I am . Please dont make me be angry again. I jus dont want to do it anymore.