[fic] gone
gone.
one-shot: yunho/jaejoong, mentions of other group members. a bit of ooc.
comatose!jae, angst | Is Yunho selfish to wish that he could turn back time just to hear his voice again?
Please listen to this while reading. ♡
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His smile was long gone, disappearing weeks ago when his world shattered around him.
Dark circles outlined his eyes due to the lack of sleep. His stomach had given up the fight of demanding nourishment as he remained starving. His muscles had started to weaken from lack of exercise. He was starting to become a hollow shell with only a broken heart inside.
All because he refused to leave the side of his loved one that was lying unmoving in a hospital bed.
His teeth clenched in anger, and his heart thudded in anticipation. It was his fucking fault! Jaejoong just happened to be caught in between because he asked him out! He slapped himself hard in frustration. This wasn't supposed to happen, they should've enjoyed their date in peace after months of not seeing each other! Yet, just a small mistake that had done all this. One mistake that caused an accident, one of them is now stuck in a comatose state and the other pleading for him to wake up.
xx
A salty liquid gathered at the corners of his eyes, threatening to spill. He blinked back the tears, refusing to let them fall. He couldn't die; he was supposed to be there for him. He promised he will! He reached out a shaking hand and brushed a few strands of dark red hair away from the closed eyes of the still man.
Yunho leaned back in his chair and forced himself to take in a deep breath, even if it was as shaky as he felt. His eyes traveled up and down the wires connected to the Jaejoong's wrist. A heart monitor beeped from time to time, indicating the slow, almost nonexistent, heart rate of the unconscious man. Worst of all was the mask covering Jaejoong's face, was the only thing that is helping him stay alive. Scars littered his face and body and his head was bandaged heavily. Jaejoong's body had become visibly thinner than it already was. He couldn't eat in this state, and the IV drip wasn't enough to sustain his former weight. He was wasting away into nothingness.
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Yunho took one of Jaejoong's cold hands in his own. He ran a finger over the pale skin, tracing the contours of the older man's now bony fingers. His heart clenched as he gazed at the pale face, for the smile he longed for so long. His mind unwillingly trailed from the older man to everything everyone had said about whether if the older man would wake up or not.
They managed to save him but he's in a comatose state..."
Yunho gave Jaejoong's hand a tight squeeze.
The doctors say they can only wait…
It just couldn't happen. Jaejoong wouldn't leave him this easily. He had to prove everyone wrong, Jaejoong would definitely make it.
I don't believe you! Jaejoong will wake up!
The salty liquid reformed in the corner of his eye.
Yunho-hyung, the way things are going…it'll be a miracle if he'll ever open his eyes again. Even if he does, he will never be the old Jae-hyung again.
Yunho gave a last hard squeeze and placed Jaejoong's hand back on the bed.
What do you mean by he won't be the same?!
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He tried to force his mind to only think about Jaejoong waking up, but memories of Junsu, Changmin and Yoochun's words kept trailing back into his mind. The voices of his old group members, his members that are even closer to him than his family, begging him to just understand.
Please, just listen to us! Jaejoong-hyung may not ever wake up, and even if he does all that's waiting for him is a life of pain... Hyung...
His eyes gazed over Jaejoong's face, a long cut decorated one of the now shallow cheeks.
His spinal cord was injured, hyung. He'll be paralyzed from the waist down for the rest of his life.
Yunho caressed Jaejoong's pale cheeks.
His optic nerve was also damaged. He could never see again! Do you want that, hyung?!
The once leader of DBSK rested his head on Jaejoong's forehead.
I don't give a damn! We can get past this!
What about his mind?! Even if he wakes up, he will have no memory of you and a intelligence of a six-year-old! Do you want him to get taunted for the rest of his life?!
"They're all wrong," Yunho whispered against Jaejoong's skin.
He can never live independently again. He'll have to be constantly monitored. He wouldn't want that! Jae-hyung doesn't want to have anyone worry over him like that.
xx
It hurts because even if Jaejoong wakes up, he wouldn't be able to recognise him anymore.
He won't even be able to accomplish simple tasks anymore. He will barely be able to move.
He'll get taunted by everyone.
Yunho pressed his lips on top of Jaejoong's forehead before pulling away to look at him.
xx
He can never get through a day without pain and suffering, Yunho-hyung.
He's going to be fine! If he needs anything I'll be there for him.
A tear finally slipped over and landed softly on Jaejoong's soft skin.
Six years. They've been together for that long. And now it seems like their memories had never happened, that it's Yunho who created them in his imagination.
xx
He let the tears fall freely now. All the overwhelming emotions he had held in for so long. And Jaejoong lay motionless on the bed, not even feeling the warm drips that was falling on his skin.
It's over, Yunho-hyung.
His mind finally trailed back to the scene when he saw everything that befell on his lover. They were only going to meet for a simple date, on a normal day-off, when he witnessed his own lover, pushed by Yunho's sasaeng fan, towards an oncoming truck.
The heart monitor continued its faint beeping, and the IV it's dripping.
He's…
"Please," Yunho choked through his sobs, "wake up."
already gone.
Written for Yunjae's anniversary!! ;uuu; #YJ행복하세요
I don't know much about the medical terms and all so please forgive me ;ww;
Also un-betaed so forgive me for mistakes too ;_;
one-shot: yunho/jaejoong, mentions of other group members. a bit of ooc.
comatose!jae, angst | Is Yunho selfish to wish that he could turn back time just to hear his voice again?
Please listen to this while reading. ♡
xx
His smile was long gone, disappearing weeks ago when his world shattered around him.
Dark circles outlined his eyes due to the lack of sleep. His stomach had given up the fight of demanding nourishment as he remained starving. His muscles had started to weaken from lack of exercise. He was starting to become a hollow shell with only a broken heart inside.
All because he refused to leave the side of his loved one that was lying unmoving in a hospital bed.
His teeth clenched in anger, and his heart thudded in anticipation. It was his fucking fault! Jaejoong just happened to be caught in between because he asked him out! He slapped himself hard in frustration. This wasn't supposed to happen, they should've enjoyed their date in peace after months of not seeing each other! Yet, just a small mistake that had done all this. One mistake that caused an accident, one of them is now stuck in a comatose state and the other pleading for him to wake up.
xx
A salty liquid gathered at the corners of his eyes, threatening to spill. He blinked back the tears, refusing to let them fall. He couldn't die; he was supposed to be there for him. He promised he will! He reached out a shaking hand and brushed a few strands of dark red hair away from the closed eyes of the still man.
Yunho leaned back in his chair and forced himself to take in a deep breath, even if it was as shaky as he felt. His eyes traveled up and down the wires connected to the Jaejoong's wrist. A heart monitor beeped from time to time, indicating the slow, almost nonexistent, heart rate of the unconscious man. Worst of all was the mask covering Jaejoong's face, was the only thing that is helping him stay alive. Scars littered his face and body and his head was bandaged heavily. Jaejoong's body had become visibly thinner than it already was. He couldn't eat in this state, and the IV drip wasn't enough to sustain his former weight. He was wasting away into nothingness.
xx
Yunho took one of Jaejoong's cold hands in his own. He ran a finger over the pale skin, tracing the contours of the older man's now bony fingers. His heart clenched as he gazed at the pale face, for the smile he longed for so long. His mind unwillingly trailed from the older man to everything everyone had said about whether if the older man would wake up or not.
They managed to save him but he's in a comatose state..."
Yunho gave Jaejoong's hand a tight squeeze.
The doctors say they can only wait…
It just couldn't happen. Jaejoong wouldn't leave him this easily. He had to prove everyone wrong, Jaejoong would definitely make it.
I don't believe you! Jaejoong will wake up!
The salty liquid reformed in the corner of his eye.
Yunho-hyung, the way things are going…it'll be a miracle if he'll ever open his eyes again. Even if he does, he will never be the old Jae-hyung again.
Yunho gave a last hard squeeze and placed Jaejoong's hand back on the bed.
What do you mean by he won't be the same?!
xx
He tried to force his mind to only think about Jaejoong waking up, but memories of Junsu, Changmin and Yoochun's words kept trailing back into his mind. The voices of his old group members, his members that are even closer to him than his family, begging him to just understand.
Please, just listen to us! Jaejoong-hyung may not ever wake up, and even if he does all that's waiting for him is a life of pain... Hyung...
His eyes gazed over Jaejoong's face, a long cut decorated one of the now shallow cheeks.
His spinal cord was injured, hyung. He'll be paralyzed from the waist down for the rest of his life.
Yunho caressed Jaejoong's pale cheeks.
His optic nerve was also damaged. He could never see again! Do you want that, hyung?!
The once leader of DBSK rested his head on Jaejoong's forehead.
I don't give a damn! We can get past this!
What about his mind?! Even if he wakes up, he will have no memory of you and a intelligence of a six-year-old! Do you want him to get taunted for the rest of his life?!
"They're all wrong," Yunho whispered against Jaejoong's skin.
He can never live independently again. He'll have to be constantly monitored. He wouldn't want that! Jae-hyung doesn't want to have anyone worry over him like that.
xx
It hurts because even if Jaejoong wakes up, he wouldn't be able to recognise him anymore.
He won't even be able to accomplish simple tasks anymore. He will barely be able to move.
He'll get taunted by everyone.
Yunho pressed his lips on top of Jaejoong's forehead before pulling away to look at him.
xx
He can never get through a day without pain and suffering, Yunho-hyung.
He's going to be fine! If he needs anything I'll be there for him.
A tear finally slipped over and landed softly on Jaejoong's soft skin.
Six years. They've been together for that long. And now it seems like their memories had never happened, that it's Yunho who created them in his imagination.
xx
He let the tears fall freely now. All the overwhelming emotions he had held in for so long. And Jaejoong lay motionless on the bed, not even feeling the warm drips that was falling on his skin.
It's over, Yunho-hyung.
His mind finally trailed back to the scene when he saw everything that befell on his lover. They were only going to meet for a simple date, on a normal day-off, when he witnessed his own lover, pushed by Yunho's sasaeng fan, towards an oncoming truck.
The heart monitor continued its faint beeping, and the IV it's dripping.
He's…
"Please," Yunho choked through his sobs, "wake up."
already gone.
Written for Yunjae's anniversary!! ;uuu; #YJ행복하세요
I don't know much about the medical terms and all so please forgive me ;ww;
Also un-betaed so forgive me for mistakes too ;_;