We remember thee, remember thee, remember thee, Zion.
Michi and I got to talking about our past in Livejournal, and it sort of turned into our past in general. I thought the conversation was worth posting.
Warning: It's very much abridged. She and I both said minor things we'd rather others not see, and there was a bit of snark. But the general thing is all there. In my most humble opinion, it is, in fact, worth reading.
Deaf Samantha (4:33:38 PM): We've been journaling for three years now.
steelgeisha (4:34:10 PM): Christ we're old.
Deaf Samantha (4:34:24 PM): Sigh.
Deaf Samantha (4:36:55 PM): "You new-fangled LJ-ers! Why, I remember when you had to have a CODE to make a journal! And to get a code, you had to have a friend on the inside! Yessir, those were the days.. Kept out the riff-raff. Folks APPRECIATED livejournal then--you got that right! Weren't none of this "Emo Crap" then, No Sir! In my day, we posted about REAL things! That MATTERED! Yessir. Like anti_avril. Now, THERE was a REAL community."
steelgeisha (4:37:18 PM): LMAO
steelgeisha (4:37:25 PM): Aww, man. anti_avril.
Deaf Samantha (4:37:46 PM): I know!!
Deaf Samantha (4:37:53 PM): I miss it.
Deaf Samantha (4:38:10 PM): and not_a_sk8er. that was a REAL username.
steelgeisha (4:38:22 PM): Oh, man. Haha.
Deaf Samantha (4:38:23 PM): none of that "[Username withheld to protect the emo]" crap.
steelgeisha (4:39:08 PM): We really are old.
Deaf Samantha (4:39:18 PM): I know.
Deaf Samantha (4:39:25 PM): I really miss old LJ.
Deaf Samantha (4:39:29 PM): and the invites.
steelgeisha (4:40:11 PM): Me too.
Deaf Samantha (4:40:32 PM): Siriusly. I miss the exclusivity.
steelgeisha (4:40:39 PM): Me too.
Deaf Samantha (4:40:43 PM): I mean, i was all "YAY! Anyone can join!'
Deaf Samantha (4:40:50 PM): But a lot of people ARE RETARDED.
steelgeisha (4:40:56 PM): Yep.
Deaf Samantha (4:41:44 PM): Man.
Deaf Samantha (4:41:58 PM): When i started out, my posts were all about Jay.
Deaf Samantha (4:42:10 PM): and you and I are OMG BFF because of LJ.
steelgeisha (4:42:25 PM): Yep...is that a little sad?
Deaf Samantha (4:42:47 PM): ..A little.
Deaf Samantha (4:42:54 PM): but not too much.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:04 PM): Man. I got my invite code from heather, i think.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:11 PM): and then gave it to... Damn.
steelgeisha (4:43:14 PM): My LJ posts used to be funny.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:22 PM): I don't remember who I gave my code to.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:25 PM): Mine never were.
steelgeisha (4:43:36 PM): Mine aren't anymore...but damn they used to be.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:40 PM): Except the SPAM thing. Excuse me, but of that, I AM PROUD.
steelgeisha (4:43:53 PM): That was hilarious.
Deaf Samantha (4:44:29 PM): *beam*.
Deaf Samantha (4:44:41 PM): Man. How many friends are friends because of LJ?
steelgeisha (4:45:39 PM): A few, maybe, but mostly I owe my friends to GSA.
Deaf Samantha (4:46:05 PM): I donno.
Deaf Samantha (4:46:19 PM): I owe friends to... you.
steelgeisha (4:46:32 PM): *beam*
Deaf Samantha (4:49:02 PM): Man. Lj. I love you--don't ever change.
Deaf Samantha (4:49:29 PM): Except sometimes. Like when you changed from the purple/orange bar to the blue one. that was ok.
steelgeisha (4:49:49 PM): Yes. Definitely.
Deaf Samantha (4:50:22 PM): I'm still on my first Username. My attempts to change... failed miserably.
Deaf Samantha (4:50:32 PM): hello, [Username Withheld to protect me & my retardation]?
steelgeisha (4:50:43 PM): Hahah, yeah.
steelgeisha (4:51:05 PM): so_gnarly didn't last long either.
steelgeisha (4:51:09 PM): IT was a little retarded.
Deaf Samantha (4:51:09 PM): I liked it.
steelgeisha (4:51:20 PM): I love _iambic. I'll never change again.
Deaf Samantha (4:51:23 PM): Would it have lasted longer if the DBs hadn't gotten it?
Deaf Samantha (4:51:25 PM): Really?
Deaf Samantha (4:51:37 PM): I hate my username.. i'm a bit embarassed by it.
Deaf Samantha (4:51:55 PM): But I love my friends, my posts, my history.. i couldn't bear to leave it.
Deaf Samantha (4:52:01 PM): or delete it. Ack.
Deaf Samantha (4:52:12 PM): I can't believe you deleted your old posts.
Deaf Samantha (4:52:38 PM): i might buy a namechange, though.
steelgeisha (4:52:54 PM): What would you change it to?
Deaf Samantha (4:53:15 PM): Oh, I donno..
Deaf Samantha (4:53:27 PM): Something from a favorite story, perhaps.
steelgeisha (4:54:13 PM): I wonder how Mike got my screen name a couple of summers ago.
steelgeisha (4:54:19 PM): That just occured to me.
Deaf Samantha (4:54:27 PM): searched your AIM?
steelgeisha (4:54:34 PM): Mebbe.
Deaf Samantha (4:54:38 PM): likely.
Deaf Samantha (4:54:48 PM): were you two friends before that?
steelgeisha (4:55:02 PM): We'd just talked.
steelgeisha (4:55:07 PM): Nothing outstanding.
Deaf Samantha (4:55:20 PM): So, was LJ instrumental in that one?
steelgeisha (4:55:28 PM): AIM more than LJ
Deaf Samantha (4:56:17 PM): Damns.
Deaf Samantha (4:56:21 PM): OK, i'm a freak.
steelgeisha (4:56:24 PM): ?
Deaf Samantha (4:56:34 PM): LJ friendships. i'm alone.
Deaf Samantha (4:56:40 PM): OK. Sarah Bitner.
Deaf Samantha (4:56:52 PM): You don't know her, but we're friends because of LJ.
steelgeisha (4:56:58 PM): Who is she?
Deaf Samantha (4:57:14 PM): she was in charleston, an ex-friend of heather's
steelgeisha (4:57:24 PM): Oo, I've heard the name.
Deaf Samantha (4:57:27 PM): now she's a colege frosh
Deaf Samantha (4:57:30 PM): *colleg
Deaf Samantha (4:57:34 PM): **COLLEGE DAMN
Deaf Samantha (4:58:21 PM): I love livejournal. MySpace... it's fun, and all, but no. Never the same. I can't imagine. I'll never leave LJ.
Deaf Samantha (4:58:41 PM): And when we're gone next year--we will lj. to keep in touch. Promise?
steelgeisha (4:59:30 PM): Haha, yeah. Of course.
steelgeisha (4:59:49 PM): I like to go through the old entries of my new friends.
Deaf Samantha (4:59:54 PM): Me too.
steelgeisha (4:59:57 PM): I wish that I'd known them when they were like this.
Deaf Samantha (4:59:57 PM): and of old friends.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:00 PM): Aw.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:10 PM): Be glad you didn't know me at the start of mine.
steelgeisha (5:00:15 PM): Because now everyone is so hard.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:18 PM): OMG SO EMO.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:21 PM): Am I hard?
steelgeisha (5:00:26 PM): we all are.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:30 PM): =(
Deaf Samantha (5:00:37 PM): Damn it.
steelgeisha (5:00:41 PM): There's a point that you lose the childhood stuff.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:46 PM): We're 16, 17, 18 years old.
Deaf Samantha (5:01:05 PM): We'r too young to be old. Cynical. Worldly.
steelgeisha (5:03:15 PM): Wow. I'm going through Mike's old entries...and it's just weird because I know everyone he's talking about.
steelgeisha (5:03:28 PM): its not weds but it might as well be. Phil got into town on saturday been hanging out wih him all the time. bought a new xbox game. Rainbow Six 3...fun tactical fps. watched the marathon man this morning after i woke up at 8. very tired. my cat is dieing. yeah so sad. sleep
steelgeisha (5:03:52 PM): I forgot to bold the "my cat is dieing." part too.
Deaf Samantha (5:04:20 PM): Man.
Deaf Samantha (5:04:24 PM): How old is that one?
steelgeisha (5:04:31 PM): December 2003.
steelgeisha (5:04:34 PM): Way before you and I.
steelgeisha (5:04:45 PM): ***me.
Deaf Samantha (5:04:51 PM): I love you!!
steelgeisha (5:06:21 PM): I like that our lives are kind of documented.
steelgeisha (5:06:30 PM): Even if we didn't do it ourselves, someone did.
Deaf Samantha (5:06:38 PM): I know.
Deaf Samantha (5:06:49 PM): I always failed terribly at printed journals.
Deaf Samantha (5:06:57 PM): But here, my life is in here.
Deaf Samantha (5:07:13 PM): Not all of it--not even the big, monumental, life-changing stuff.
Deaf Samantha (5:07:29 PM): but little things.
Deaf Samantha (5:07:51 PM): like, "oh, drew wore a scubasuit for the movie"
Deaf Samantha (5:07:53 PM): or whatever.
steelgeisha (5:08:09 PM): Haha...aw.
Deaf Samantha (5:08:35 PM): I miss a lot of stuff. [examples]
steelgeisha (5:10:21 PM): I don't miss that much.
steelgeisha (5:10:42 PM): Most of my friends are...even though they've changed a lot, still people I enjoy being around.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:05 PM): I miss you. I mean, i love who you are now, wouldn't change her.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:14 PM): but i wish I could bring up old michelle, too.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:19 PM): and hang out with you both.
steelgeisha (5:11:21 PM): I miss this summer, when everyone was still together.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:34 PM): because she was less grown-up. and i was less grown-up around her.
steelgeisha (5:11:38 PM): Haha, wow. I didn't realize there was an old Michelle. I'm so un-self-aware.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:54 PM): not like stark contrast, or anything.
Deaf Samantha (5:12:00 PM): but you change. we all do.
steelgeisha (5:12:43 PM): grants, nates, matt's, and chris's unnoficial band. it was cool. got to meet some of the people that i didn't know...like michelle...and if she reads this post...underwear... it was the first time i actually talked to her and she seemed pretty cool. umm what else. played some ddr at phils and played some ultimate with everyone else. night kiddies.
steelgeisha (5:12:48 PM): Wild.
steelgeisha (5:13:09 PM): July 26, 2004....that my friend is where this allll started.
Deaf Samantha (5:13:29 PM): Man.
Deaf Samantha (5:13:41 PM): Can i go back in time and erase that day?
steelgeisha (5:13:45 PM): No way.
Deaf Samantha (5:13:50 PM): But...
Deaf Samantha (5:13:58 PM): My life. Is complicated now.
Deaf Samantha (5:14:02 PM): and.
steelgeisha (5:14:05 PM): More good came from it than bad.
steelgeisha (5:14:10 PM): We just remember the bad stuff.
Deaf Samantha (5:14:14 PM): Yeah.
Deaf Samantha (5:15:33 PM): I cringe at my old posts.
Deaf Samantha (5:15:50 PM): When I was full of rage at Kourtni collins for comparing me to avril.
Deaf Samantha (5:15:59 PM): What the hell? didn't I have a real life?
steelgeisha (5:16:27 PM): http://www.livejournal.com/users/1_h473_y0u/36623.html
Deaf Samantha (5:17:13 PM): Awwwwww.
Deaf Samantha (5:17:26 PM): I'd forgotten I did those.
Deaf Samantha (5:17:40 PM): I think I'll make you a new one, if you come up with some newer pics.
steelgeisha (5:18:01 PM): Aw, haha.
Deaf Samantha (5:23:01 PM): I miss the days when EVERY SINGLE POST in my LJ was happy.
steelgeisha (5:23:19 PM): aw.
Nostalgia.
Warning: It's very much abridged. She and I both said minor things we'd rather others not see, and there was a bit of snark. But the general thing is all there. In my most humble opinion, it is, in fact, worth reading.
Deaf Samantha (4:33:38 PM): We've been journaling for three years now.
steelgeisha (4:34:10 PM): Christ we're old.
Deaf Samantha (4:34:24 PM): Sigh.
Deaf Samantha (4:36:55 PM): "You new-fangled LJ-ers! Why, I remember when you had to have a CODE to make a journal! And to get a code, you had to have a friend on the inside! Yessir, those were the days.. Kept out the riff-raff. Folks APPRECIATED livejournal then--you got that right! Weren't none of this "Emo Crap" then, No Sir! In my day, we posted about REAL things! That MATTERED! Yessir. Like anti_avril. Now, THERE was a REAL community."
steelgeisha (4:37:18 PM): LMAO
steelgeisha (4:37:25 PM): Aww, man. anti_avril.
Deaf Samantha (4:37:46 PM): I know!!
Deaf Samantha (4:37:53 PM): I miss it.
Deaf Samantha (4:38:10 PM): and not_a_sk8er. that was a REAL username.
steelgeisha (4:38:22 PM): Oh, man. Haha.
Deaf Samantha (4:38:23 PM): none of that "[Username withheld to protect the emo]" crap.
steelgeisha (4:39:08 PM): We really are old.
Deaf Samantha (4:39:18 PM): I know.
Deaf Samantha (4:39:25 PM): I really miss old LJ.
Deaf Samantha (4:39:29 PM): and the invites.
steelgeisha (4:40:11 PM): Me too.
Deaf Samantha (4:40:32 PM): Siriusly. I miss the exclusivity.
steelgeisha (4:40:39 PM): Me too.
Deaf Samantha (4:40:43 PM): I mean, i was all "YAY! Anyone can join!'
Deaf Samantha (4:40:50 PM): But a lot of people ARE RETARDED.
steelgeisha (4:40:56 PM): Yep.
Deaf Samantha (4:41:44 PM): Man.
Deaf Samantha (4:41:58 PM): When i started out, my posts were all about Jay.
Deaf Samantha (4:42:10 PM): and you and I are OMG BFF because of LJ.
steelgeisha (4:42:25 PM): Yep...is that a little sad?
Deaf Samantha (4:42:47 PM): ..A little.
Deaf Samantha (4:42:54 PM): but not too much.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:04 PM): Man. I got my invite code from heather, i think.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:11 PM): and then gave it to... Damn.
steelgeisha (4:43:14 PM): My LJ posts used to be funny.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:22 PM): I don't remember who I gave my code to.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:25 PM): Mine never were.
steelgeisha (4:43:36 PM): Mine aren't anymore...but damn they used to be.
Deaf Samantha (4:43:40 PM): Except the SPAM thing. Excuse me, but of that, I AM PROUD.
steelgeisha (4:43:53 PM): That was hilarious.
Deaf Samantha (4:44:29 PM): *beam*.
Deaf Samantha (4:44:41 PM): Man. How many friends are friends because of LJ?
steelgeisha (4:45:39 PM): A few, maybe, but mostly I owe my friends to GSA.
Deaf Samantha (4:46:05 PM): I donno.
Deaf Samantha (4:46:19 PM): I owe friends to... you.
steelgeisha (4:46:32 PM): *beam*
Deaf Samantha (4:49:02 PM): Man. Lj. I love you--don't ever change.
Deaf Samantha (4:49:29 PM): Except sometimes. Like when you changed from the purple/orange bar to the blue one. that was ok.
steelgeisha (4:49:49 PM): Yes. Definitely.
Deaf Samantha (4:50:22 PM): I'm still on my first Username. My attempts to change... failed miserably.
Deaf Samantha (4:50:32 PM): hello, [Username Withheld to protect me & my retardation]?
steelgeisha (4:50:43 PM): Hahah, yeah.
steelgeisha (4:51:05 PM): so_gnarly didn't last long either.
steelgeisha (4:51:09 PM): IT was a little retarded.
Deaf Samantha (4:51:09 PM): I liked it.
steelgeisha (4:51:20 PM): I love _iambic. I'll never change again.
Deaf Samantha (4:51:23 PM): Would it have lasted longer if the DBs hadn't gotten it?
Deaf Samantha (4:51:25 PM): Really?
Deaf Samantha (4:51:37 PM): I hate my username.. i'm a bit embarassed by it.
Deaf Samantha (4:51:55 PM): But I love my friends, my posts, my history.. i couldn't bear to leave it.
Deaf Samantha (4:52:01 PM): or delete it. Ack.
Deaf Samantha (4:52:12 PM): I can't believe you deleted your old posts.
Deaf Samantha (4:52:38 PM): i might buy a namechange, though.
steelgeisha (4:52:54 PM): What would you change it to?
Deaf Samantha (4:53:15 PM): Oh, I donno..
Deaf Samantha (4:53:27 PM): Something from a favorite story, perhaps.
steelgeisha (4:54:13 PM): I wonder how Mike got my screen name a couple of summers ago.
steelgeisha (4:54:19 PM): That just occured to me.
Deaf Samantha (4:54:27 PM): searched your AIM?
steelgeisha (4:54:34 PM): Mebbe.
Deaf Samantha (4:54:38 PM): likely.
Deaf Samantha (4:54:48 PM): were you two friends before that?
steelgeisha (4:55:02 PM): We'd just talked.
steelgeisha (4:55:07 PM): Nothing outstanding.
Deaf Samantha (4:55:20 PM): So, was LJ instrumental in that one?
steelgeisha (4:55:28 PM): AIM more than LJ
Deaf Samantha (4:56:17 PM): Damns.
Deaf Samantha (4:56:21 PM): OK, i'm a freak.
steelgeisha (4:56:24 PM): ?
Deaf Samantha (4:56:34 PM): LJ friendships. i'm alone.
Deaf Samantha (4:56:40 PM): OK. Sarah Bitner.
Deaf Samantha (4:56:52 PM): You don't know her, but we're friends because of LJ.
steelgeisha (4:56:58 PM): Who is she?
Deaf Samantha (4:57:14 PM): she was in charleston, an ex-friend of heather's
steelgeisha (4:57:24 PM): Oo, I've heard the name.
Deaf Samantha (4:57:27 PM): now she's a colege frosh
Deaf Samantha (4:57:30 PM): *colleg
Deaf Samantha (4:57:34 PM): **COLLEGE DAMN
Deaf Samantha (4:58:21 PM): I love livejournal. MySpace... it's fun, and all, but no. Never the same. I can't imagine. I'll never leave LJ.
Deaf Samantha (4:58:41 PM): And when we're gone next year--we will lj. to keep in touch. Promise?
steelgeisha (4:59:30 PM): Haha, yeah. Of course.
steelgeisha (4:59:49 PM): I like to go through the old entries of my new friends.
Deaf Samantha (4:59:54 PM): Me too.
steelgeisha (4:59:57 PM): I wish that I'd known them when they were like this.
Deaf Samantha (4:59:57 PM): and of old friends.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:00 PM): Aw.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:10 PM): Be glad you didn't know me at the start of mine.
steelgeisha (5:00:15 PM): Because now everyone is so hard.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:18 PM): OMG SO EMO.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:21 PM): Am I hard?
steelgeisha (5:00:26 PM): we all are.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:30 PM): =(
Deaf Samantha (5:00:37 PM): Damn it.
steelgeisha (5:00:41 PM): There's a point that you lose the childhood stuff.
Deaf Samantha (5:00:46 PM): We're 16, 17, 18 years old.
Deaf Samantha (5:01:05 PM): We'r too young to be old. Cynical. Worldly.
steelgeisha (5:03:15 PM): Wow. I'm going through Mike's old entries...and it's just weird because I know everyone he's talking about.
steelgeisha (5:03:28 PM): its not weds but it might as well be. Phil got into town on saturday been hanging out wih him all the time. bought a new xbox game. Rainbow Six 3...fun tactical fps. watched the marathon man this morning after i woke up at 8. very tired. my cat is dieing. yeah so sad. sleep
steelgeisha (5:03:52 PM): I forgot to bold the "my cat is dieing." part too.
Deaf Samantha (5:04:20 PM): Man.
Deaf Samantha (5:04:24 PM): How old is that one?
steelgeisha (5:04:31 PM): December 2003.
steelgeisha (5:04:34 PM): Way before you and I.
steelgeisha (5:04:45 PM): ***me.
Deaf Samantha (5:04:51 PM): I love you!!
steelgeisha (5:06:21 PM): I like that our lives are kind of documented.
steelgeisha (5:06:30 PM): Even if we didn't do it ourselves, someone did.
Deaf Samantha (5:06:38 PM): I know.
Deaf Samantha (5:06:49 PM): I always failed terribly at printed journals.
Deaf Samantha (5:06:57 PM): But here, my life is in here.
Deaf Samantha (5:07:13 PM): Not all of it--not even the big, monumental, life-changing stuff.
Deaf Samantha (5:07:29 PM): but little things.
Deaf Samantha (5:07:51 PM): like, "oh, drew wore a scubasuit for the movie"
Deaf Samantha (5:07:53 PM): or whatever.
steelgeisha (5:08:09 PM): Haha...aw.
Deaf Samantha (5:08:35 PM): I miss a lot of stuff. [examples]
steelgeisha (5:10:21 PM): I don't miss that much.
steelgeisha (5:10:42 PM): Most of my friends are...even though they've changed a lot, still people I enjoy being around.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:05 PM): I miss you. I mean, i love who you are now, wouldn't change her.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:14 PM): but i wish I could bring up old michelle, too.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:19 PM): and hang out with you both.
steelgeisha (5:11:21 PM): I miss this summer, when everyone was still together.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:34 PM): because she was less grown-up. and i was less grown-up around her.
steelgeisha (5:11:38 PM): Haha, wow. I didn't realize there was an old Michelle. I'm so un-self-aware.
Deaf Samantha (5:11:54 PM): not like stark contrast, or anything.
Deaf Samantha (5:12:00 PM): but you change. we all do.
steelgeisha (5:12:43 PM): grants, nates, matt's, and chris's unnoficial band. it was cool. got to meet some of the people that i didn't know...like michelle...and if she reads this post...underwear... it was the first time i actually talked to her and she seemed pretty cool. umm what else. played some ddr at phils and played some ultimate with everyone else. night kiddies.
steelgeisha (5:12:48 PM): Wild.
steelgeisha (5:13:09 PM): July 26, 2004....that my friend is where this allll started.
Deaf Samantha (5:13:29 PM): Man.
Deaf Samantha (5:13:41 PM): Can i go back in time and erase that day?
steelgeisha (5:13:45 PM): No way.
Deaf Samantha (5:13:50 PM): But...
Deaf Samantha (5:13:58 PM): My life. Is complicated now.
Deaf Samantha (5:14:02 PM): and.
steelgeisha (5:14:05 PM): More good came from it than bad.
steelgeisha (5:14:10 PM): We just remember the bad stuff.
Deaf Samantha (5:14:14 PM): Yeah.
Deaf Samantha (5:15:33 PM): I cringe at my old posts.
Deaf Samantha (5:15:50 PM): When I was full of rage at Kourtni collins for comparing me to avril.
Deaf Samantha (5:15:59 PM): What the hell? didn't I have a real life?
steelgeisha (5:16:27 PM): http://www.livejournal.com/users/1_h473_y0u/36623.html
Deaf Samantha (5:17:13 PM): Awwwwww.
Deaf Samantha (5:17:26 PM): I'd forgotten I did those.
Deaf Samantha (5:17:40 PM): I think I'll make you a new one, if you come up with some newer pics.
steelgeisha (5:18:01 PM): Aw, haha.
Deaf Samantha (5:23:01 PM): I miss the days when EVERY SINGLE POST in my LJ was happy.
steelgeisha (5:23:19 PM): aw.
Nostalgia.