I realize...

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I realize Anna is leaving soon now. But I'm still not sad about it.

I realize that Howl's Moving Castle is a fricking amazing movie that I love.

I realize I am a selfish and scared individual who most people don't understand or really care for.

I realize mental changes are harder than the physical changes.

I realize that I'm slowly destroying one of my most important relationships by being the me I hate.

I realize I miss my best friend more than I've ever missed anyone before. I'm so lucky.

I realize not everything will be given to me and to achieve the life I desire, I will have to work and I will have to do it alone.

I realize my constant need of praise and adoration is a disgusting and putrid addiction that should be destroyed.

I realize I haven't posted any picture of prom anywhere in the world except in my bed room.

I realize most of the pictures in my room are of Jeremiah because he matters and gives me pictures.

I realize my Greatest journal account is no longer secret because Allan knows what it is.

I realize many people say they want to be my friend, but never really try to get to know me any better. I wonder if that's because they lie or they are lazy.

I realize not everyone is laughing at me and they are not always thinking about how fat I am.

I realize I am a beautiful and worthwhile person who just isn't worthwhile or beautiful to most people.

I realize no one cares about my realizations and I'm okay with that.

I realize I'm in love and want to live while I still can.