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it isn't a big deal to me. but it makes me feel filthy. like i'm all alone and there is nothing i can do.
i want to talk to someone about how i feel, but i don't know how i feel so i don't know what to say.
i wish i wasn't me. that i didn't look like this or i didn't have these quirks.
i want to just run away from myself.
i want someone to care. i wish someone knew what to say to make me feel good. i wish i could feel good.
right now i feel jealous and lonely.
very lonely, utterly forgettable and completely un-unique...
it's breath-defying.
it's breath-taking.
it's something i wish i could wrap my fingers around and choke.
i want to talk to someone about how i feel, but i don't know how i feel so i don't know what to say.
i wish i wasn't me. that i didn't look like this or i didn't have these quirks.
i want to just run away from myself.
i want someone to care. i wish someone knew what to say to make me feel good. i wish i could feel good.
right now i feel jealous and lonely.
very lonely, utterly forgettable and completely un-unique...
it's breath-defying.
it's breath-taking.
it's something i wish i could wrap my fingers around and choke.