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it really fucking pisses me off that i wasn't invited/informed about anna's going away party. i hate people.
I HATE EVERYONE RIGHT NOW...
especially people who whine all the time (such as myself) about trivial things that will eventually go away in a matter of time. i'm so sick of hearing how horrible everything in the whole fucking world is.
i'm sick of people being angry too, and being in bad moods. and people being depressed for no reason and then telling me it's life it's really something i neglected to realize and perform. i hate that. i'm not a fucking mind reader and i'm not a fucking good person. it's hard for me to care about people. you're lucky if I do.
i just wish every bad feeling would just vanish for at least one day and it would all be happy again like it was before all these people jumped into my friends' lives, stealing them from me and shutting me into a small room with no light. i'm so sick of being in the fucking dark all the time. i know it's none of my business so don't bring it up unless you're going to fully explain in a way my stupid mind can handle. please.
i don't know why i'm in a bad mood all of a sudden. i guess i'm just tired and need to go and listen to music and then sleep and dream. maybe things will be better then.
i like it when anna p talks to me. she always tells me everything in a situation, not just part of it. and she even says how she FEELS about it in a clear and articulate matter that isn't 'oh, it makes me sad.' or 'i don't know' she always knows how she feels. i admire that.
i hate me.
please, hate me, too.
I HATE EVERYONE RIGHT NOW...
especially people who whine all the time (such as myself) about trivial things that will eventually go away in a matter of time. i'm so sick of hearing how horrible everything in the whole fucking world is.
i'm sick of people being angry too, and being in bad moods. and people being depressed for no reason and then telling me it's life it's really something i neglected to realize and perform. i hate that. i'm not a fucking mind reader and i'm not a fucking good person. it's hard for me to care about people. you're lucky if I do.
i just wish every bad feeling would just vanish for at least one day and it would all be happy again like it was before all these people jumped into my friends' lives, stealing them from me and shutting me into a small room with no light. i'm so sick of being in the fucking dark all the time. i know it's none of my business so don't bring it up unless you're going to fully explain in a way my stupid mind can handle. please.
i don't know why i'm in a bad mood all of a sudden. i guess i'm just tired and need to go and listen to music and then sleep and dream. maybe things will be better then.
i like it when anna p talks to me. she always tells me everything in a situation, not just part of it. and she even says how she FEELS about it in a clear and articulate matter that isn't 'oh, it makes me sad.' or 'i don't know' she always knows how she feels. i admire that.
i hate me.
please, hate me, too.