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Man, the shit just doesn't stop, and the stress is relentless. This has certainly won this year's worst week award. already. Still, going into a class and suddenly finding out that there's a test - that day - on something you have not yet read is definitely a bit liberating. or something. That class is absurd anyway. Don't take a class on Buddhism, it's not meant for institutionalization or rigorous study. Do, however, look into Buddhism (which, if you end up doing that, does not mean accepting a religious belief or devoting life to something, it just means figure everything out and then live life totally aware... no real studies, no real practice. That's whay a class on it sucks. As a famous Buddhist saying goes, "the Buddha is a shit-stick" or "kill the Buddha.") Kill this semester too.
Oh, summer... I really hope I can do something cool with writing and music in my time off. Academic/institutionalized life is really getting old, and it just seems so meaningless. College has become tiresome without fulfillment. Maybe I'll be one of those people who does great in school then just quits and does something totally awsome with their life. Maybe I just need time to think. Yeah, every aspect of my life seems to need thinking time lately. Time that is on its joyous way. Well, at least my job is awesome. John started working there so I have yet another buddy to goof off with. Having a shitty day but getting over $100 in tips without working overly hard sure is a nice bonus. If only my bank account didn't suddenly close for no reason. Dear Wachovia, fuck you.
Today shouldn't be too bad: 30mg Adderall and Paradise Lost (apologies to all of you who dislike the use of drugs, they work just fine for me). With the help of that speedy cognitive muse I'm going to write a really interesting essay about recurring Buddhist principles in Paradise Lost and the possible political/theological reasons for Milton's purposeful (& maybe, oftentimes, accidental) usage of them. Hopefully I can get enough done to free up my Monday. Today and Friday are my schoolwork & studyfest days since they're the days I have no school (except one class today) and no work. Ugh. I am so ready for school to be over. Lately, I just feel like I have too much in my head to be wasting it and all my time on acquiring a state-certified piece of paper that says I read a bunch of canonized literature. Fuck the state. And fuck canonized literature ...at least fuck it for the reason of looking impressive for having read it - some of it really is good and certainly worth reading. I just want to write and I want to make a cd. I've won some awards this year, yay hooray, but I want to do some shit. Like seriously. Dear world, watch out.
Okay, essayfest begins.
Oh, summer... I really hope I can do something cool with writing and music in my time off. Academic/institutionalized life is really getting old, and it just seems so meaningless. College has become tiresome without fulfillment. Maybe I'll be one of those people who does great in school then just quits and does something totally awsome with their life. Maybe I just need time to think. Yeah, every aspect of my life seems to need thinking time lately. Time that is on its joyous way. Well, at least my job is awesome. John started working there so I have yet another buddy to goof off with. Having a shitty day but getting over $100 in tips without working overly hard sure is a nice bonus. If only my bank account didn't suddenly close for no reason. Dear Wachovia, fuck you.
Today shouldn't be too bad: 30mg Adderall and Paradise Lost (apologies to all of you who dislike the use of drugs, they work just fine for me). With the help of that speedy cognitive muse I'm going to write a really interesting essay about recurring Buddhist principles in Paradise Lost and the possible political/theological reasons for Milton's purposeful (& maybe, oftentimes, accidental) usage of them. Hopefully I can get enough done to free up my Monday. Today and Friday are my schoolwork & studyfest days since they're the days I have no school (except one class today) and no work. Ugh. I am so ready for school to be over. Lately, I just feel like I have too much in my head to be wasting it and all my time on acquiring a state-certified piece of paper that says I read a bunch of canonized literature. Fuck the state. And fuck canonized literature ...at least fuck it for the reason of looking impressive for having read it - some of it really is good and certainly worth reading. I just want to write and I want to make a cd. I've won some awards this year, yay hooray, but I want to do some shit. Like seriously. Dear world, watch out.
Okay, essayfest begins.