Nov 19, 2006 09:09
power infrastructures are strange. after realizing this i need to piss.
i'm going to puke.
why?
i can drink all night if i puke now.
i can't stop falling into her. she's a doppleganger of many and I wish that'd mean she were also my lover.
why don't you just take two shots, won't that get the job done?
i figure i'll put my finger down my throat, take two shots, do a line...
i never thought i'd say this about someone talking about puking so much but you're incredible ho--
then i'll be able to drink all night. go all night.
she's preparing for the stall, hand on the door and i'm walking out - i swear she says, "you can't touch me. don't touch me," to me but I figure I'm just being paranoid. i want to push into her gently but with presence and kiss into the mess.
I see her again on the balcony and then the other is introducing more variables to the already sloppy equation so I make a B-line out the door and walk 2 miles home having re-visions of being held at gunpoint in Oakland.
if you talk to yourself they think you're crazy and they leave you alone. it's nice that way.
queerness,
friends,
shindigs,
future imperfect