All My Life
Well, its been awhile since ive written in here. We didnt have school today, but Most of the seniors went anyways because we have a lot of things to do in order to graduate, So we made a day out of it. I myself spent 5 hours working on my senior project and finishing up little things here and there. Anyways, After that, I picked up Donald, and we drove out to South Haven for a bit, and walked on the beach for awhile. Then We ended up going to Subs-N-More because my friend Becky was working. and I guess I bored Donald because Matt came around and he left with him, lol. Then, I ended up meeting this girl Named Jennifer who was working with Becky, and she was giving me a hard time at first, being kinda a bitch to me, but then she started being cool with me, and it wasnt until I met her, she made me realize that the things I say leave long lasting effects on the people who I say them to. I didnt really realize that The smallest thing I say could be the only thing on that persons mind for the next few weeks. I never really thought about the small things I say to people carring wise, could have such an impact. I didnt realize that I have been hurting my friend Becky for so long. and it seriously bothers me to think I have put her through Pain. And anyone else :(. Her friends Jennifer told me I need to make things better because she claims Becky still likes me a lot, but Jennifer seems convinced im the typical guy, and not meaning anything I say. But the truth is... Is I care for someone thats not Becky, Im leaving in about 4 months for the Marines, How fair would that be for her? Why would I want to put someone through that much pain of missing me? Let alone the pain id be in from it. If only everyone understood.... All My Life.