I Swear.
Well....Tonight marks another night of heartache. Chrissy left to go back to school. Tomorrow, Is my last day home and im off to yet more training. So only God knows when I will be able to come home again. I doubt it will be possible for at least the next year. So I have to trust Love, Faith, and my heart to know that Everything will be okay between my wonderful Girlfriend and Me. Thats really my main concern. Seeing her cry tonight and just everything, Tonight after I got in my car to leave her driveway I sat in there and started to cry a little bit, but had to force myself to stop when they pulled up next to me and have her mom wish me the best. Im going to miss Chrissy so fucking much its crazy. Its like they say, you never know how much you'll miss someone until they're gone. Well, shes gone in the sense that I wont see her again in whats going to feel like forever, Damnit!!! This fucking sucks. I Wish she could come with me. But she cant right now. But she will someday, and we can journey together. Ugh... the heartache. I love you Chrissy. Thank you for everything you've helped me with While Ive been home. I def. got to see you more than I expected. and I Loved every minute of it. You are seriously wow... amazing. I wish you knew. Please be strong for me, Be safe, concentrate, and never lose faith.