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[sired1880spike]

I had to keep pinching myself to check I wasn't dreaming. Pretty sodding uncool, but this - I've dreamed about this for years. Me and Buffy, together. Not just in bed. I love the sex, don't get me wrong, but I did without it all last year, and I didn't mind. Because Buffy valued me, and having her share her thoughts with me was worth more than

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[_buffster_]

After a long day full of lots of questions, Spike and I spent a few hours doing what's quickly becoming "Our thing." We dont even have sex anymore...it's different. Making Love, I guess you could say. Then falling asleep in his arms. Those gorgeous, strong arms...that match the rest of him. I dont know why I couldn't just admit my love for him earlier...

I must've felt his presence disappear, because when I woke up at 1:00 in the morning he wasnt beside me. I got up to look for him, suddenly feeling very lonely. I walked out on the back patio. Sure enough, he was there...smoking a cigarette by the garden. As much as smoke had always bothered me, Spike's always made smoking sexy...it even smells sexy on him

[sired1880spike]

"I know, love, but..." I paused. "I'm getting a bit antsy, locked up in this house with the whole Scooby gang, you know? I mean, I sort of like your friends, but I don't need them 24/7. I was thinking of getting my own place." I ground out my cigarette and mumbled: "you could come with me." I said it quietly so I could pretend I hadn't said it if need be.

[_buffster_]

My head snapped up. "Come with you?" I asked, making sure I had heard him right. He nodded, smirking slightly. I thought for a minute. Move in with Spike? In our own place? Wow. It's something I've been dreaming about ever since he came back. Well, ever since he left, really. I wanted it more than anything. To be able to just be us. I was sick of holding back for everyone else's sake. And Giles really didn't need that many people in the house.

But at the same time I knew I couldn't...what about Dawn? It was my responsibility to watch out for her...not everyone elses. As much as I wanted to move in with Spike, I wasn't sure if that would work.

"But...Dawn." I said, apoligetically.

[sired1880spike]

"Wouldn't expect you to abandon Dawn." I took a completely unnecessary breath. "She could come with us, if she wanted to."

[_buffster_]

"Spike...." I started...completely confused. Wouldn't this all work out? For everyone? I'd have my Spike, Dawn would have the both of us, and Giles would have two less people to take care of. This is starting to sound better and better. I smiled a little...realizing that I might actually get the best of both worlds.

"You couldnt afford it anymore than Giles can though, honey. I....you know I'd love to...and as soon as we can make it all work out, I'll definitely go with you. There's nothing I'd want more than to be with you all the time. But...can we really do it right now?"

[sired1880spike]

"I'm gonna get a job, love." I grimaced slightly. "Haven't done a decent day's - night's - work in... Well, a long time. But I can't just sponge off your old man anymore. Leave it to me, I'll sort it out."

[_buffster_]

I smiled at his useage of the words, 'Old Man'. He really DID want to take care of me...of US. I guess it scared me knowing that he could. I didnt want him going off and getting a job when he didn't really need to though.

"Spike...are you sure?" I asked him, making sure he wouldnt change his mind.

[sired1880spike]

"I hope you know me well enough by now, pet, to know I don't lie to you," I said, pulling her into my arms.