hello
i hate my wireless mouse. it jumps around sometime. i just written a lot and it decided to jump into the right hand corner to close the window. oh well. i remember what i was talking about.
today was such a long exhausting day of work. however i cant complain i got paid today and i made money. thats something some people cant do. however, work was very interesting. brett had asked me when i was coming on full time. he then said he didnt want to make russ mad that he was stealing me away from village chapel. i told him that russ is probably already anticipating it. he then said something suprising, 'whenever youre ready'. i didnt feel like asking him if there was even enough work to be full time. later that day though, he commented that him and dave were going down to home depot tomorrow to find out if gas solutions could do their installs on all gas appliances. ironic, without knowing that at first, dave was showing me how to gas pipe. showing me how to cap stuff off and how to use what and where. its all pretty easy stuff...mostly just long. brett at the end of the work day asked if they did want to, then if i would want to do that...i immediately said yes.
thinking about leaving village chapel made me think of whats been on my mind lately. i feel as if God is getting me closer and closer to leaving village chapel and moving on to the next part of my calling. leaving village chapel as work is just another one of those steps. theres already been steps made that way overall. its just rough, because ive been there for ten years. everyone there has felt like family. the family that i never had or have. i use an analogy:
everyone knows that person who is dating that other person for as long as anyone can remember. the person who needs to move on really cant because all they know is this person. for so long thats all it has been, so thats the way it should stay.
however, im not looking to really leave, but i know that i cant stay. its not a horrible feeling knowing that i cant stay either. its just another part of life. another part of growing up into the man i will be for the rest of my life. i just want to know whats next. obviously all of this is very skeptical, because they are in my head. however, i know some of it is true, but the question is, how much?
well, i think ive written enough thoughts down for now. this wouldve been longer, but the window closed on me...twice! i fallen into a routine...how will i ever get out now?
todays top five is...
top five movie quotes:
1. 'where do these stairs go?'
'they go up' -ghostbusters
2. 'shut up, it could be chocolate ok?' -muppets in space
3. 'the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he doesnt exist' -the usual suspects
4. 'was i miserable because i listened to pop music, or did i listen to pop music because i was miserable?' -high fidelity
5. 'i dont, i dont believe it'
'that is why you fail' -empire strikes back
today was such a long exhausting day of work. however i cant complain i got paid today and i made money. thats something some people cant do. however, work was very interesting. brett had asked me when i was coming on full time. he then said he didnt want to make russ mad that he was stealing me away from village chapel. i told him that russ is probably already anticipating it. he then said something suprising, 'whenever youre ready'. i didnt feel like asking him if there was even enough work to be full time. later that day though, he commented that him and dave were going down to home depot tomorrow to find out if gas solutions could do their installs on all gas appliances. ironic, without knowing that at first, dave was showing me how to gas pipe. showing me how to cap stuff off and how to use what and where. its all pretty easy stuff...mostly just long. brett at the end of the work day asked if they did want to, then if i would want to do that...i immediately said yes.
thinking about leaving village chapel made me think of whats been on my mind lately. i feel as if God is getting me closer and closer to leaving village chapel and moving on to the next part of my calling. leaving village chapel as work is just another one of those steps. theres already been steps made that way overall. its just rough, because ive been there for ten years. everyone there has felt like family. the family that i never had or have. i use an analogy:
everyone knows that person who is dating that other person for as long as anyone can remember. the person who needs to move on really cant because all they know is this person. for so long thats all it has been, so thats the way it should stay.
however, im not looking to really leave, but i know that i cant stay. its not a horrible feeling knowing that i cant stay either. its just another part of life. another part of growing up into the man i will be for the rest of my life. i just want to know whats next. obviously all of this is very skeptical, because they are in my head. however, i know some of it is true, but the question is, how much?
well, i think ive written enough thoughts down for now. this wouldve been longer, but the window closed on me...twice! i fallen into a routine...how will i ever get out now?
todays top five is...
top five movie quotes:
1. 'where do these stairs go?'
'they go up' -ghostbusters
2. 'shut up, it could be chocolate ok?' -muppets in space
3. 'the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he doesnt exist' -the usual suspects
4. 'was i miserable because i listened to pop music, or did i listen to pop music because i was miserable?' -high fidelity
5. 'i dont, i dont believe it'
'that is why you fail' -empire strikes back