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ok yeah... 3 days late but better late then never.
New Years Res: well i've already figured out there's no way to fix the past... that's obvious... so my goal (my revolution... fuck resolving things... time to revolt) is to live my life for the moment and even when things are shitty be so on the bright side that there's nothing i can do but smile in the worst of times. cuz as shitty that this last year of existence may have been... there's been so many great things that have happened... shit may be shit, but shit happenes... and on top of all that there's one thing that surpasses everything good and bad... and one just keeps giving.
another thing... i'm lookin at the past and all my mistakes and i'm just laughing... just to think that i was such a stupid kid and how much i've changed mentally towards things. i remember Jen said to me, "You're going to change in college"... i thought a change in a certain kind of way... but it was a totally different way that i changed. i know most people work their way toward a heaven or higher state of being... but i think it's true that heaven's not a place that you go when you die... it's that moment in life that you touch her and feel alive. and so i live for the moment and take this advice "live by every word" cuz love's completely real. i know.... i know so much... lots of things may change... but i know one won't, and i'm gonna hold on to that. because for all i know... i might die tomorrow... or the day after... whenever it happens... i'm gonna live my life with no more regrets. forget regret... or life is yours to miss. no other road... no other way.... no day but today! i'm no longer sad that certain things have gone wrong in my life or decisions... i'm madly happy that everything else went good and in some cases great. i wouldn't trade my life for anything. there are many things that shape us into who we are... constantly changing our molds... but like i said earlier... i'm never letting go of that one thing that bypassed the mold... and became me. my life isn't amazing... but i'll be damned if i don't make it just that!
life's a road... and while most people are happy on their highways... i'm off to make my own road.
New Years Res: well i've already figured out there's no way to fix the past... that's obvious... so my goal (my revolution... fuck resolving things... time to revolt) is to live my life for the moment and even when things are shitty be so on the bright side that there's nothing i can do but smile in the worst of times. cuz as shitty that this last year of existence may have been... there's been so many great things that have happened... shit may be shit, but shit happenes... and on top of all that there's one thing that surpasses everything good and bad... and one just keeps giving.
another thing... i'm lookin at the past and all my mistakes and i'm just laughing... just to think that i was such a stupid kid and how much i've changed mentally towards things. i remember Jen said to me, "You're going to change in college"... i thought a change in a certain kind of way... but it was a totally different way that i changed. i know most people work their way toward a heaven or higher state of being... but i think it's true that heaven's not a place that you go when you die... it's that moment in life that you touch her and feel alive. and so i live for the moment and take this advice "live by every word" cuz love's completely real. i know.... i know so much... lots of things may change... but i know one won't, and i'm gonna hold on to that. because for all i know... i might die tomorrow... or the day after... whenever it happens... i'm gonna live my life with no more regrets. forget regret... or life is yours to miss. no other road... no other way.... no day but today! i'm no longer sad that certain things have gone wrong in my life or decisions... i'm madly happy that everything else went good and in some cases great. i wouldn't trade my life for anything. there are many things that shape us into who we are... constantly changing our molds... but like i said earlier... i'm never letting go of that one thing that bypassed the mold... and became me. my life isn't amazing... but i'll be damned if i don't make it just that!
life's a road... and while most people are happy on their highways... i'm off to make my own road.