come on...everyone else is doing it
sometimes i'm not sure what to do, and my friends all have the best advice. am i at a point in my life where i should make a major decision? do i need change in my life? should i change jobs? should i sell all my shit and live a simpler life? paper or plastic?
i don't hate my job, actually it's gotten nicer since some dicks have been fired. sometimes i enjoy the work, and have fun with my coworkers. but...sometimes i feel like i could be doing better, but at what? what do i know, what can i do? how do i find out my capabilities? most of the stress i feel at work is from the fact that i'm a new forman, gotta learn a few things, thats all.
my social life has it's ups and downs, but it's static. nothing really changes these days, same drama new names. the lack of a girl friend doesn't bother me as much as i say it does. but it would be nice. all my friends are at crossroads in they're lives, am i? i'm drinking too much, not really eating right, and i'm not working out. i don't like that at all.
i don't think i need a change in my life, just direction. i need drive, maybe a challenge, kickstart this useless brain into showing it's potential. or maybe i need faith, even an atheist needs faith in something. but what can i have faith in? myself, yeah i need that. i've been rading some of taoism, and it really speaks to me, maybe that'll help.
i gotta start thinking about finding a new place to live, the roomies probably won't be renewing. i don't really like the house, i like my room though. i know it's early, the lease doesn't end until september, gotta be ready. do i still want to live in pittsburgh, should i move out to the burb's? do i want roommates? i don't think i should live alone, it's depressing.
sigh....so much to think about. maybe i'll make some pancakes, and think about it.
i don't hate my job, actually it's gotten nicer since some dicks have been fired. sometimes i enjoy the work, and have fun with my coworkers. but...sometimes i feel like i could be doing better, but at what? what do i know, what can i do? how do i find out my capabilities? most of the stress i feel at work is from the fact that i'm a new forman, gotta learn a few things, thats all.
my social life has it's ups and downs, but it's static. nothing really changes these days, same drama new names. the lack of a girl friend doesn't bother me as much as i say it does. but it would be nice. all my friends are at crossroads in they're lives, am i? i'm drinking too much, not really eating right, and i'm not working out. i don't like that at all.
i don't think i need a change in my life, just direction. i need drive, maybe a challenge, kickstart this useless brain into showing it's potential. or maybe i need faith, even an atheist needs faith in something. but what can i have faith in? myself, yeah i need that. i've been rading some of taoism, and it really speaks to me, maybe that'll help.
i gotta start thinking about finding a new place to live, the roomies probably won't be renewing. i don't really like the house, i like my room though. i know it's early, the lease doesn't end until september, gotta be ready. do i still want to live in pittsburgh, should i move out to the burb's? do i want roommates? i don't think i should live alone, it's depressing.
sigh....so much to think about. maybe i'll make some pancakes, and think about it.