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I met a girl.... and in less than a week it got fucked up.
on my birthday (august 23rd) i met vicky. She was fucking GREAT, basically she had everything that all other girls, who have swept through my life, lacked. Being the pussy I am, she had to go in for the first kiss. then the next day everything was great, we were like peas and carrots. then the day after that she was acting weird. so the weekend rolled in and out and i didn't really hear from her. Her friends said that she tends to pick up guys and drop them pretty quickly... so i thought she was avoiding me cuz she just didn't want to have to SAY that it was over... over in 3 fucking days, well really it was a little longer cause we had been talking non-stop for a few days before that... fucking 10 hours conversations that lasted from evening to early morning. well anyway... i decided to say something about how if she didn't want to see me anymore, she could just say so instead of ignoring me. She acted like i was crazy for thinking anything was wrong... but she still is acting weird. She wasn't calling me or talking to me for as long as we had been, hell i was lucky if i heard from her every few days. She keeps making excuses for not hanging out... most are legit, but she could make time if she wanted to... so i say fuck it, i can take a hint... even if she wont admit somethings up, im not going to put up with someone who can't even express themselves. So this lead me to a week of anguish... analyzing myself, her, us, my mistakes, my personality... all leading me to just think im karmically cursed. Apparently its without possibility for me to find one person who knows what they want, who they want... im sick of all this pseudo shit, why can't reality exist and bullshit just step off to the side for once.
on my birthday (august 23rd) i met vicky. She was fucking GREAT, basically she had everything that all other girls, who have swept through my life, lacked. Being the pussy I am, she had to go in for the first kiss. then the next day everything was great, we were like peas and carrots. then the day after that she was acting weird. so the weekend rolled in and out and i didn't really hear from her. Her friends said that she tends to pick up guys and drop them pretty quickly... so i thought she was avoiding me cuz she just didn't want to have to SAY that it was over... over in 3 fucking days, well really it was a little longer cause we had been talking non-stop for a few days before that... fucking 10 hours conversations that lasted from evening to early morning. well anyway... i decided to say something about how if she didn't want to see me anymore, she could just say so instead of ignoring me. She acted like i was crazy for thinking anything was wrong... but she still is acting weird. She wasn't calling me or talking to me for as long as we had been, hell i was lucky if i heard from her every few days. She keeps making excuses for not hanging out... most are legit, but she could make time if she wanted to... so i say fuck it, i can take a hint... even if she wont admit somethings up, im not going to put up with someone who can't even express themselves. So this lead me to a week of anguish... analyzing myself, her, us, my mistakes, my personality... all leading me to just think im karmically cursed. Apparently its without possibility for me to find one person who knows what they want, who they want... im sick of all this pseudo shit, why can't reality exist and bullshit just step off to the side for once.