You're not worth a Second Glance..
i hate LJ right now..i just wrote a HUGE entry like huge man and it didnt work and it got deleted..and it was a fun entry so im writing it over. so bah.
so im finally home..when we got back my mom took a nappy nap and then it was off to the mall.
the original plan was to goto macys and get some jeans but then we went to lord and taylor where everything sucks. so since we were right by hot topic i was all like hey mommmmy lets goto hot topic, so of course we go there and im all like i want that and that and that and that and that..and they had a donnie darko shirt that i didnt see until after we paid so my moms guna go back and get it for me! wooo...so like i got capri type things and a shirt that says "dorks are hot" i <33 them
then we went to pac sun and i got a pair of yummy jeans and a pair of dickies which i love so so much!
so then we came home and i worked on my homework which took for freaking ever. lol i got my progress report which sucked but it could've been a lot worse..which reminds me..i hate spanish..when im concentrating i do well but its hard when i have the stupid teacher up my ass every freaking minute of class. bahh. speaking of stupid stupid school i hate that i cant even get counseling. and kate's been really weird..shes saying im acting out and all this shit...maybe if she took the time thats susposed to be my counseling time and listened to my reason instead of just guessing...ugh..i dont even have group anymore because people complained which sucks. bahh.
i hate people..they can all die. =) heh. except jamie, shes been really cool and i feel bad she's been dragged into a bad situation when its not her fault. she also needs to start being good or else we wont be able to hang out and that would suck ass. im just worried about her...<3
i've been thinking about this thing with lily..and im not going to get depressed about it..it'll just bring me down and i dont need that in my life right now. nobody does.. sure i did stuff wrong and when i get caught up in being happy with my friends i have fun and i know i ignored lily a bit but i always tried to make it up ..i accept that, but its not all my fault that lily feels the way she does. if she wants to feel that way and hang out with other people..im okay with it now. if our friendship cant handle me making new friends..then maybe its just not worth saving. sure it hurts alot..but, i cant spend all my time thinking about it and dwelling over it..depressed people dont need more things to be depressed about...i just learned that i need to stop thinking about the things that are dragging me down and start thinking about the things that are good in my life.the bottom line is..i love lily alot and i would love to save our friendship but i just dont think it will happen..and its okay now..im going to think of the good things we did when we were friends and not dwell on the bad..because i dont need that..neither does anyone else..also..bringing people into this is making it worse, its between me and lily or was. everyone should just drop it and we should all go on to better things..im not saying that to be mean...its just true yah know? i just think the on-going war between us should stop. if we ever become friends again than thats awesome..but we should jepordise it by being mean to one another..im done hurting myself and her and everyone else.. hopefully she is too. i just need to start thinking about good things and not the sucky stuff.
thats about it basically..but one more thing -->
i understand there will probably be alot of comments over this entry..thats okay but lets just keep them from being horribly hurtful to others. we dont need that right now thanks =)
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so im finally home..when we got back my mom took a nappy nap and then it was off to the mall.
the original plan was to goto macys and get some jeans but then we went to lord and taylor where everything sucks. so since we were right by hot topic i was all like hey mommmmy lets goto hot topic, so of course we go there and im all like i want that and that and that and that and that..and they had a donnie darko shirt that i didnt see until after we paid so my moms guna go back and get it for me! wooo...so like i got capri type things and a shirt that says "dorks are hot" i <33 them
then we went to pac sun and i got a pair of yummy jeans and a pair of dickies which i love so so much!
so then we came home and i worked on my homework which took for freaking ever. lol i got my progress report which sucked but it could've been a lot worse..which reminds me..i hate spanish..when im concentrating i do well but its hard when i have the stupid teacher up my ass every freaking minute of class. bahh. speaking of stupid stupid school i hate that i cant even get counseling. and kate's been really weird..shes saying im acting out and all this shit...maybe if she took the time thats susposed to be my counseling time and listened to my reason instead of just guessing...ugh..i dont even have group anymore because people complained which sucks. bahh.
i hate people..they can all die. =) heh. except jamie, shes been really cool and i feel bad she's been dragged into a bad situation when its not her fault. she also needs to start being good or else we wont be able to hang out and that would suck ass. im just worried about her...<3
i've been thinking about this thing with lily..and im not going to get depressed about it..it'll just bring me down and i dont need that in my life right now. nobody does.. sure i did stuff wrong and when i get caught up in being happy with my friends i have fun and i know i ignored lily a bit but i always tried to make it up ..i accept that, but its not all my fault that lily feels the way she does. if she wants to feel that way and hang out with other people..im okay with it now. if our friendship cant handle me making new friends..then maybe its just not worth saving. sure it hurts alot..but, i cant spend all my time thinking about it and dwelling over it..depressed people dont need more things to be depressed about...i just learned that i need to stop thinking about the things that are dragging me down and start thinking about the things that are good in my life.the bottom line is..i love lily alot and i would love to save our friendship but i just dont think it will happen..and its okay now..im going to think of the good things we did when we were friends and not dwell on the bad..because i dont need that..neither does anyone else..also..bringing people into this is making it worse, its between me and lily or was. everyone should just drop it and we should all go on to better things..im not saying that to be mean...its just true yah know? i just think the on-going war between us should stop. if we ever become friends again than thats awesome..but we should jepordise it by being mean to one another..im done hurting myself and her and everyone else.. hopefully she is too. i just need to start thinking about good things and not the sucky stuff.
thats about it basically..but one more thing -->
i understand there will probably be alot of comments over this entry..thats okay but lets just keep them from being horribly hurtful to others. we dont need that right now thanks =)
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