I don't update as much anymore...
I guess I don't really care about it as much as I used to.
Right now I'm sad. I feel like crying. I haven't cried in a long time. I would seriosuly rather starve to death right now, than have to go through all this bullshit.
I'll try to think of something happy-er. I know it won't makie me feel any better though. It never does. And never will.
Friday Caroline and I went to Abacoa. While we were waiting for Mike and Julian to get there, I saw Zilvinas. We talked with him for a while. It really sucks that he's in high school now. He's such a cool kid. When they finally got there, we didn't really talk much. Zach, Max, and Dymetry came later. We walked around over to the golf course. Zach and Max left to go find his new girlfriend. We walked. And walked. And walked. It was incredibly boring. I did, however, get to see my sister in Barnie's. I haven't seen her in almost 2 months. She moved out of the house. I really miss her. It's no fun without her. Even though we only talked for a couple minutes, it felt really good. When my dad came to pick me up, it didn't get any better. He yelled at me for not wanting to eat anything. He thinks I'm anorexic. Not kidding. He asked me, when I said no, he didn't beleive me. I told Meagan and Ali that today. They went along with it, and said I need to eat more. It's not that I starve myself, it's that I don't eat when I don't want to. I like to eat when I am happy, and lately that is never.
Saturday we took a walk. We walked to Eckerd and back. 2 effing hours. I was so sweaty. About 20 minutes after we were home, we put on Hannibal. It was turned off after like, 10 minutes. Her mom came and picked us up at around 2:30. We drove to her house and Alison shortly arrived. (happy, now that I wrote your name in here?? lol)
After the sweat was washed off of us, we got ready to go to cityplace. Once we were there, we saw Jessica, Alicia, and Jessica's friend. Kelsey came later. We met up with Chrissie and Jenny. And walked. And walked. And walked. We took the trolley to Pizza Girls. I didn't get anything. After reading all the "kiddy"-Easter books in Barnes & Noble, Caroline's mom picked us up. When we got to the house, Alison was upset because she couldn't find her wallet. I would have been, too. She had like $70 in there. We made giant over sized cookies (more like hot piles of dough) to attempt to cheer her up. They weren't exactly what someone would call "good."
Sunday, we went to the Palm Beach Mall. We must have tried on 50 dresses for prom. I got overly jealous because Alison has huge "knockers!!" hahaha, she doesn't like them though. lol, very funny. We went into Wet Seal. I got the CUTEST dress ever! It's a tube dress and it goes passed my knees. Its very glittery, and looks great on me. I was glad to get that over with.
There are alot more details about this weekend. I'm not planning on putting them in. Details like why I'm PISSED at Zach now. And why I'm in love with Julian. And how Cynthia nad I got into a fight. And how my mom pisses the fuck out of me. I'm going to leave them all out though. I'm depressed enough as it is. I don't need to go through all that bullshit again.
Time to go to bed, street lights are on.
Right now I'm sad. I feel like crying. I haven't cried in a long time. I would seriosuly rather starve to death right now, than have to go through all this bullshit.
I'll try to think of something happy-er. I know it won't makie me feel any better though. It never does. And never will.
Friday Caroline and I went to Abacoa. While we were waiting for Mike and Julian to get there, I saw Zilvinas. We talked with him for a while. It really sucks that he's in high school now. He's such a cool kid. When they finally got there, we didn't really talk much. Zach, Max, and Dymetry came later. We walked around over to the golf course. Zach and Max left to go find his new girlfriend. We walked. And walked. And walked. It was incredibly boring. I did, however, get to see my sister in Barnie's. I haven't seen her in almost 2 months. She moved out of the house. I really miss her. It's no fun without her. Even though we only talked for a couple minutes, it felt really good. When my dad came to pick me up, it didn't get any better. He yelled at me for not wanting to eat anything. He thinks I'm anorexic. Not kidding. He asked me, when I said no, he didn't beleive me. I told Meagan and Ali that today. They went along with it, and said I need to eat more. It's not that I starve myself, it's that I don't eat when I don't want to. I like to eat when I am happy, and lately that is never.
Saturday we took a walk. We walked to Eckerd and back. 2 effing hours. I was so sweaty. About 20 minutes after we were home, we put on Hannibal. It was turned off after like, 10 minutes. Her mom came and picked us up at around 2:30. We drove to her house and Alison shortly arrived. (happy, now that I wrote your name in here?? lol)
After the sweat was washed off of us, we got ready to go to cityplace. Once we were there, we saw Jessica, Alicia, and Jessica's friend. Kelsey came later. We met up with Chrissie and Jenny. And walked. And walked. And walked. We took the trolley to Pizza Girls. I didn't get anything. After reading all the "kiddy"-Easter books in Barnes & Noble, Caroline's mom picked us up. When we got to the house, Alison was upset because she couldn't find her wallet. I would have been, too. She had like $70 in there. We made giant over sized cookies (more like hot piles of dough) to attempt to cheer her up. They weren't exactly what someone would call "good."
Sunday, we went to the Palm Beach Mall. We must have tried on 50 dresses for prom. I got overly jealous because Alison has huge "knockers!!" hahaha, she doesn't like them though. lol, very funny. We went into Wet Seal. I got the CUTEST dress ever! It's a tube dress and it goes passed my knees. Its very glittery, and looks great on me. I was glad to get that over with.
There are alot more details about this weekend. I'm not planning on putting them in. Details like why I'm PISSED at Zach now. And why I'm in love with Julian. And how Cynthia nad I got into a fight. And how my mom pisses the fuck out of me. I'm going to leave them all out though. I'm depressed enough as it is. I don't need to go through all that bullshit again.
Time to go to bed, street lights are on.